Nonnie, as much as I wish I could wake up everyday and see you again, I know that wish can't come true. For the past 17 years you've never doubted me, nor give up on me no matter how impossible it seemed. You were always the one to reassure me everything would be okay. And even though I can't hear those words, I feel what you're saying the one time I need it most. Never did I think you would be taken away from me so sudden and if I would have known, I would have done it different. Mommie told me I would feel guilt, it's just something that happens when someone passes. But it's more pain I feel then anything. I never really got to tell you how much I love you. I was always sure you were able to see it. I wasn't the easiest person to deal with and now I just feel such denial I will never be able to make it up to you. I know you watch over me and protect me, just like you always have and will continue to do. I still can't believe you're really gone -- it seems like an extended vacation you went on without telling anybody, leaving it up to us to find our way back to you. I promise once I reach you, I will never let you leave me again. I know you didn't leave me to hurt me, but because it was better for you. It hurt to see you in pain and suffer everyday and I'm happy not because you're gone but because you're in a place where nothing can ever hurt you again. And when I cry Nonnie, I don't want you to be sad. The tears are temporary but as long as you're happy, I couldn't ask for more. I know there's so many times I could have just stayed and told you everything but I didn't. But we've had so many memories together that no one could ever take from me. So now I will take care of Mommie and we will get through this together. Knowing you're there to help ease the pain is what everyone needs right now. I know you don't want to see anyone upset but you're just such an important part of everyones life it's hard to hide our tears. You and Mommie are the number one women in my life and now I feel like a piece of me is missing. I wish there was a way you could hear all this and if I could run right back to you and deliver this message, you would never see me run faster. Even Mommie would be on time for once. I know you like to laugh so I'd add that in there. This is my letter to you for I never got the chance to say everything I wish I could have. I could go on forever and it still wouldn't be enough to describe how much I love you. You are always in my thoughts and forever in my heart. I love you with all my heart and soul and we will meet again someday, I promise. I love you Nonnie</b></font><br><br>
