Contributions to the tribute of Eugene J. Barrett, Sr.

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renee posted a condolence

good morning gene, well last night was gabby's sweet 16 party and she looked beautiful, me and maggie went with jayden and andrew. it was a nice night, my sister worked really hard to make it that way. we went with uncle al, who by the way is not feeling too great. everything went fine until the end when all the drunking idiots and drama people decided it would be a good time to fight. thank god i left with jayden a little earlier. even though i was not there i felt sorry for my sister and gabby. it was a terrible way to end the night. it just ruined everything. qua wound up getting arrested, i can't say i am upset about that, he acted the same way he acted at tasha's wedding, like a drunking ass. alittle boy trying to act like a man. well anyway it was nice before all the drama, the food was really good, thanks to michelle and mom. i missed you there with me, felt down. i guess i have to just know that i will always be alone, in my heart i know that even though we have kids and we are supposed to be each others right arm, i know that i seem to be a bother to them. i think they blame me for what happened to you, i keep getting told that if daddy was here, daddy is the only one who cared, things would be different if daddy was here. i can only hope that they find peace within themselves and go on. i am so lonely all the time, the only time they are nice to me is if they need something. i wish i had more to give, but i don't. if i had more to give maybe they would be closer to me. well anyway, gene will be leaving in about 23 days, i know he can't wait, i willl miss him, more than he knows, but i want him to be happy. sandra seems to be a good person and they love each other. you know gene i hope before i die i see each and everyone of our kids happy. that is really all i ask, i could never rest if i knew they were in turmoil. well here i sit, sunday morning, all are sleeping even the two little angels. jarred has to get up soon to work, its another really hot and humid day, hate it. can't wait for the winter. well gene keep us close, i will always keep you in my heart. i miss you more than words could say. i wll love you forever. just a couple of weeks before your birthday and our anniversary. i am so sorry we couldn't do what we wanted on that day, we always looked forward to it. well gene, i will talk to you later. until we meet again.

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good morning big, its a dreary rainy day today. missing you so much. we have problems right now with baby andrew. please watch over him. things are always upside down, lonely, so lonely without you. all this time has passed and we are all feeling it harder than in the beginning. i love you so much. sleep well. i will talk to you later. until we meet again, i will love you forever.

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maggie posted a condolence

hey daddy well i havnt been by in awhile to talk to you i miss u so much dad jayden and andrew are getting so big you would have enjoyed them so much times going by so fast without you here dad i wish you could come back for a day let us see ur face so we can be happy especially mommy she misses you so much things are not the same without you sometimes the house is lonely without u here i know ur in a better plce cuz ur not sufferin but i want to be selfish and wish u back dad i have av long life infront of me and u were suppose to be here for some of the most important things dad its hard to think bout things without u here i know ur not aloneu have freddy grandpa urmom n dad aunt angie but that doesnt change the fact that we dont have u well dad time for me to go i love u forever

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hi gene, well tommorrow will be 9 months since your gone. where did all the time go. it still feels so new even though its been that long. i miss you more and more everyday. i hope heaven has been good to you, you deserve the best. the ache in my heart never goes away, never. i want you here with me, in my mind this should not have happened, you were too young, we should have had so much more time together. these were going to be the good years, or should i say the better years. me and you, like always. instead i sit here everyday wondering what could we have done to make it different, i would have tried anything just to keep you with me, you know that. i did what you wanted, even though i think i should have put my foot down and not listenend to you, but it really was your decision to make. well there is no going back and you are gone and i am left here to deal with your leaving.i wish we had one more day, just one more, i would give anything to see you again. just know that i will never stop loving you and missing you, my thoughts will be with you tommorrow, more than usual. rest in peace my greatest love and watch over us. save a place for me. until we meet again. renee

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happy fathers day in heaven gene, just want to let you know that next to the man that you share part of heaven with, my dad, you were the best father and papa. you were sometimes loud and harsh but you loved your kids with everything you had, you were good to them, and you were the best papa to jayden. they all miss you very much and i guess they all deal with things differently but i know how they feel. there will always be a big hole in the family wth you gone, you have no idea. i feel the loss of my dad today too, double the heartache. we miss him everyday.well gene we will be smiling up at you today, its your day. smile back and always watch over us, especially jayden and andrew. andrew will never know what a great papa you were, but we will make sure he knows who you are, i promise. well gene i will talk to you later. say hi to everyone, and hug my dad for me and tell him i love and miss him. rest in peace my greatest love. until we meet again. renee

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good morning my love, just thinking about you all night. i had a really bad day yesterday, not only thinking about you, but everything. couldn't wait for the day to get over. the start of another day today, feeling a little better but not much. i miss you all the time. i love you gene with all my heart. sending you a big kiss and hug. say hi to everyone for me. talk to you later, until we meet again.

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good morning gene, sunday morning sitting here like always with a cup of coffee, everyone else is still sleeping, waiting to cook breakfast. well gene eight months without you, it hitting me harder and harder everyday, nobody knows what i am going thru on the inside. nothing has devasted my life more than you leaving me. this was supposed to be our time, kids grown doing their own thing, and me and you, like it always was, doing our thing, it probably would not have been big and elaborate, but it would have been just me and you. this was suppposed to be our year for renewing our vows. we had made a promise that no matter what, we would do it. remember we would say, tell everyone to go down the shore and get remarried on the beach, how great that would have been. im tired, physically and emotionally, right now i just feel like i have nothing else to give, i am in such a mess. if i knew it wouldn't hurt everyone i would just call it a day and end it all. i feel my sanity just slipping away. you know i used to say, things cant be that bad that a person couldn't recover and decided that their life was not worth living, but i do understand now. l love my family, especially our kids and grandsons, but everyday is a struggle, i have no one to talk to, i mean really talk to. of course i have my sister, but she has a lot on her plate too, alot. i miss you so much. well anyway, genie will be leaving soon for sweden and wll come home in november, jarred leaving for texas in sept. just for a week, i think, hope he is able to save the money to go, wish i could help him, he is very good to all of us and it bothers me that when he needs me i can't help. he lost alot of weight and looks good. maggie is looking for work and so is daemon. he got second degree burns on his shoulders, was in the er on saturday. jayden and andrew are beautiful and are the ones that really keep me going, especially on the really bad days. the weather is hot and of course you would be laughing at me, you know i hate it. i hope heaven is cool. lol. well gene thats it, i talk to you like you are here, when you were here you always listened to me, we could talk about anything. i miss that. well i am going to say goodbye fore now and i am sorry that no one takes the tme to write to you, but like i always said, just me and you. i love you wth all my heart and will miss you forever. watch over us and until we meet again i wll forever hold you in my heart., renee

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good morning gene, saturday around seven, having a cup of coffee, just got done feeding andrew so maggie could sleep a little. both boys are sleeping now, jarred just left for work, everybody else still in bed. andrew is getting bigger, you know he really is a little peen, lol. jarred calls him lbg, little big gene, because he looks so much like you. i see you everytime i look into his beautiful eyes. i wish you were here to see him, you would fall in love, just like you did wth jayden. jayden is talking up a storm and singing songs, he is so smart. he talks about you everday, even if we dont mention you, its unbelievalble. time seems to e flying by, half a year almost gone already, but time stops for me, and i relive the day you passed a million times a day. if i just would have stayed when you fell asleep, i would have been ther when god took you home. i just wanted to get everything done so i could get back sooner. i wished you would have waited for me, i would have held your hand and told you how much i loved you, so you would not have been alone. i am sorry for that. well tis is memorial weekend, we are going to bbq with my sister. my mom is by ida's. i live everyday holding my breath, like if i don't exhale maybe in my mind, all this didn't happen. i am a emotional mess. always thought i was stronger, but i quess i was wrong, you were rigt, you always told me that i was a softy, i let my emotions get the best of me. i worry about everything, our kids, our grandkids, my sister, she has a lot on her sholders too, alot to do with my situation, really bad. i am not feeling well, i know there is smething wrong, i don't want to know, i never feel good. no money to go to doctors, and to be honest, i am afaid to find out. if its something bad, how will the kids deal wth it and i am afraid that i will have to leave them the way you did, what wll happen to them, what about our grand babies, who will help maggie, i am so scared. genie wll be leaving for sweden soon an i am going to miss him. jarred is going to texas sometime in sept. just for a week, will miss him too, i cant believe his is going to fly, lol. well gene i think i filled you in on most of whats going on. going to finish my coffee and do whatever needs to be done in the house. i want you to know that i miss you more everyday. i love you wth all my heart, until we meet again. please watch over all us, hug my dad for me and tell freddy to knock it off, lol. give aunt angie a kiss for me too.

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renee posted a condolence

good morning gene, its just about 6am, everyone is sleeping, even our two little angels, andrew just had a feeding. he is filling out so nice, he is beautiful, god bless him. he looks so much like you, especially his eyes, when i look into them i feel like i am looking into yours. well gene things are about the same around here, lonely, sad, depressed. it gets worse everyday. its been months now that you are gone and the other day i had this overwhelming feeling, and then it hit me, really hard, after all this time i realized that you are not coming back. i looked in the bedroom and just broke down. i cant't handle you not being here anymore. the only thing that keeps me going are the babies. my job sucks right now, not enough hours, cant find a second job, bills backed up, feel like i am drowning. i miss you so much. i have not been feeling too good lately, get up during the night and i cant breath, my migrains are getting so much worse, my back hurts all the time, oh boy i am a mess. no insurance, cant go to doctors, i dont need another bill on my head. whatever it is it is. well gene boy will be leaving for sweden in august, jarred is going to texas in sept., he is having issues with his job too. i feel sorry for him. he is my rock sometimes, he is always there for me. he is such a good person, he lost alot of weight and looks really good. my one wish is that all my kids are happy, the way things are going i think they just want to settle, not good. well gene going to put coffee on now, wish you were here to have some with me. i love you more than you ever knew, i will talk to you later, you are always in my thoughts. keep a watch over us, especially our grandsons. until we meet again, i will love you foreever, renee

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good morning gene, having a cup of coffee and decided to spend these few minutes of mothers day with you. not doing anything special today, jarred is taking me for dinner on friday, can't wait. we have alot to be thankful for today, our two grandsons, both beautiful, the love of my life. if i were to leave this earth tommorrow i would have known the love of a great husband, 5 children, and 2 amazing grandchildren. a sister that is always there for me, good or bad. i guess you would say that thats what really matters. sometimes i don't feel so blessed with everything else going on, but at the end of the night i remember all the times we had and only wish that there were more. how we could have enjoyed these two babies together. my heart will never mend, it broke the day you left and will never be the same. i love you with all my heart and until we meet again, save a place for me. talk to you later. renee

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hi gramps, well our grandson has arrived, she changed his name to andrew eugene. he looks like a barrett, his profile and eyes look like you. he is gorgeous, a little one only 6.6 and 18 inches long. he has black hair, alot, like corn silk,. like geneis when he was born, only genies was blonde. there is a problem with his left ear, either he has fluid or he is going to be deaf on the left side. we wont know for sure till july. watch over him gene, i am worried, but no matter what we will deal with it. we love him even more. well i am sitting here waiting for them to come home. i will talk to you later. i miss you, wish you were here with us to celebrate andrew. i know you are watching from heaven. ill love you forever, and dont worry, we will make sure andrew knows who his papa is.love forever, renee

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renee posted a condolence

well gene we are grandparents, but not to a girl the way we thought, its a boy, cameron eugene, after you, you would be so proud.i didnt see him yet but maggie says he looks just like jayden. watch over him too gene, now we have peen #2, lol. cant wait to see him. i will talk to you later, so sorry you are not here for all this, i miss you, especially times like this. i love you. renee

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good morning big, sitting here waiting for the coffee to get done, woke up with a slight migraine, what else is new. its early, jarred just left for work, everybody is sleeping, except genie. its going to be really hot today, hate it. opening ceremonies were last weekend, and they honored pug for all his time spent there. i was supposed to go but didn't. well gene tommorrow will mark 7 months that you are gone, time seems to fly. i miss you everyday memories are what i have to hang on to now and i thank god that we has so many good ones. we had our moments too, but the good out weighed the bad. i hope you are resting in peace. watch over us and like i said before, save a nice cool spot for me. i love you gene more than you know. nothing will ever be the same, ever. oh and by the way our new grandchild is a girl. isnt that wonderful, you would have been crazy for her i know it. well gene i will let you sleep now and until we meet again, you will always be in my heart and soul.i love you

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good morning my love, i written you in awhile, but i talk to you everyday. the first thing i see in the morining and the lsst thing at night. sometimes just looking at your picture helps. well we still dont know what the new baby is, probably a girl, just like when i was pregnant for maggie, didn't want to open the legs. lol. well gene things are pretty much the same, genie will be going to sweden in august to be with sandra. he is just visiting but he will be moving there permanently. i will miss him. jayden is getting so big, talking up a storm, i am so sorry that you had to miss all this, he would melt your heart, just the way he always did. he talks to you everyday or mentions you, he blows kisses to you too. every man he sees with a beard or mustache and big glasses he calls papa. its amazing what they remember, he even picked up your cane and said pappas. i scared about what the future holds for me, things are not good, i cant function the right way. i basically stay in the house, not that i was ever a go out all the time person, but now ireally dont want to do anything. i get up in the morning because i have to otherwise i think i would just melt into the couch and stay there.i remember the times that we had and that makes me feel good, but then i realize that all those times are past and there wont be anymore special times with you. i miss you so much, so anyway hows freddy, pain in the ass i guess. lol. i miss him too, even though we didnt see eye to eye all the time and i didn't see him at all after you passed. only talked to him twice. well gene i hope you are resting peacefully, that is my wish for you. i know you are not in pain anymore and thats a relief. i would have taken care of you no matter what, i want you to know that. no matter what. i know your body couldn;t take anymore because you were a fighter, thru all the illnesses and pain but i knew that this last bout you gave up. not because you wanted to, but the circumstances were bad. i wish i could see you one more time, talk to you, hug and kiss you. sometimes i cant wait to be with you again. i will try my hardest to keep the family together, right now things are not so good with mom. you know how our relationship was and still is. i love her, but things will never be right between me and her. michelle is my go to person, she is always there for me, no matter what. i dont know how long i can stay here, it is not fair to her and jose, maybe when genie leaves i will try to find something. i dont want to go but how long can i go like this. well gene now that i told you all my problems i am going to leave now and talk to you soon. i love you so very much and miss you more and more everyday. watch over us, tell everybody i said hi, and that i love them all. oh and by the way i found your cousin jimmy shcerz, i did it for you, i know you tried looking for him but we could never find him. i wrote everybody with that last name and got a few negative responses until wednesday, your cousin jimmys son contacted me and told me that he was the right one. jimmy is still in california and works for an insurance company. still enjoys playing music, he played with earth wind and fire and the byrds. i will love you forever. keep a nice cool place for me, until we meet again, renee

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renee posted a condolence

good morning big, saturday morning, watching the little peen wake up and have crackers with me, he like to dunk in my coffee, i know how you hated that, lol. well the weather went from boiling hot to freezing cold. today is the cold day. last week i had to have the ac on, oh boy. missing you alot. i know i dont write everyday like i was, but people tell me that i have to let go and go on with my life. well those people dont understand. well maybe they do, but i am not ready yet, in fact i will never be able to go on without you. i cant help what others say. i was never a go out kind of person you know that, i enjoy staying home sometimes, i just feel no inner haoppiness. i feel happy whenever i am with the peen, and thats good, cause i am with him everyday. besides our kids he is the joy of my life like he was yours. he misses you too. talks about you everyday, in his own way. i never stop thinking about you, you are always in the front part of my mind. i hope you are at peace, i always tell you that. god has a good friend in you and now that you have freddy there with you i can rest a little easier that you two are together. well gene i will say so long for now, i will talk to you soon, say hi to everyone, give my dad a hug for me. tell freddy to act right, lol. i will love you forever gene, till we meet again. renee

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happy easter gene, sitting here waiting for everyone to get up, we are taking jayden to the easter egg hunt at the church today. i wish you were here to share it with him. rememeber how we used to sit up at night when the kids were little and make their baskets, and you always brought a little bag for you to fill with all the extras, lol, i used to tell you that you were like a kid yourself. all the little things meant so much. this year only a basket for jayden and candy for the big ones, cant forget them , even though they are grown. there's alot of reeses there and they even make white choclate ones, they must have been thinking about you.well gene another holiday without you and it does not get any easier. we still dont know the sex of the new baby, we will find out tommorrow. hope its a girl, her name will be tatiana michelle, and a boy will be cameron eugene, after his papa. cooking lamb today, dont feel like much of anything. i miss you so much, and its not true when they say, time heals all wounds, not true at all. hows big fred, bitching and moaning i guess, no beer in heaven, lol, or is there. well gene i will talk to you later, watch over us and keep us safe , especially jayden, lilliana, and the two new babies not here yet. i will love you forever. see you in my dreams. renee

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renee posted a condolence

good morning big, today is your 6 month anniversary with god. i hope that these months have been peacful for you. i miss you more and more everyday, i know i tell you all the time but its the truth, there is not a day that goes by that you are not on my mind i relive your passing. wish i could have been there to feel your last breath, and look into your beautiful blue eyes on more time. the only comfort i find is that you are not suffering. i am going to the store with jarred, today as you know is my birthday and its killing me, i haven't spent it without you in almost 25 years. well gene sleep well with the angels, i will talk to you later. i love you with all my heart and always will. see you in my dreams, forever in my heart., renee

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good morning big, sitting here, is still dark out and raining again. i like rain but it seems sad. you know what i mean. well we don't know the sex of the baby yet, monday we will know. still hoping for a girl. i hope you are resting in peace. talk to you later, i love you gene. i miss you. unti we meet again. renee

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good morning gene, today is the day we find out if we are having a granddaughter or son. hoping for a girl but it really doen't matter, just wish you were here to be with us. we all need you right now. you were our rock. i miss you more and more everyday, i can't believe that you will be gone 6 months next week. my heart still feels like the day you left. i will let you know later about the baby. i love you more than you will every know, i can't get thru the day without breaking down off all we had and all we lost. i will talk to you later. until we meet again, i will keep you in my heart.

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maggie posted a condolence

hey daddy its me maggie, well as u already know im pregnant again due in may or june..i know things r hard right now for everyone but as long as i have mommy here it will be easier for me to deal with everything i miss u so much dad especially now how i wish u were here to share the baby with i know u wud of been mad but u were always the easier one to take the news lol i guess thats cuz im ur lil girl and u could never really get mad at me.. jayden misses u so much dad he talks to everyday he calls ur name and tells u to watch him skate he even sings the all in the family song lol mommy got him doin that.. u would be so happy of how smart and beautiful he is im so blessed to have him in my life hes my world.im glad jayden got to spend a year with u even though u were in pain he was the apple of ur eye..i found the football u bought him when he was 6months old n i said to him jayden who bought u that n he goes papa n every time u say to him do u miss papa he goes yes n smiles..dad watch over him n the new baby be there guardian angel..i will find out on thursday the sex of the baby if its a boy the name will be cameron eugene and if its a girl wat we r hoping for the name will b tatiana michelle but it doesnt really matter a boy or girl just as long as its healthy..i know my timing wasnt right but im strong enough to do this i got mommy whos been helpin me the whole time n the boys who dont always show it but i know they love n they will b there for me daemon and genie are going to b the godparents and there happy.well daddy its gettin late mommy and jayden are sound asleep snorin loud lol jayden sleeps like u with his mouth open..well dad im gonna go i miss u so much n i love u very much p.s remember watch over us rest in peace dad i love u

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renee posted a condolence

happy st. patricks day in heaven big, i will making the corned beef and cabbage for me and genie. nobody else likes it. you loved this day, you were a proud irishman. wish you were here to enjoy it. maybe my dad will celebrate with you, lol, i know my aunt angie will, but best of all you have your mom and dad there, how nice for them. i know you are with people who love you and i guess it was time for you to be with them again, but we want to be with you here, i miss you so much. well gene have a good day . i know that sounds stupid but you know what i mean. i will love you forever gene and miss you every minute of every day. jayden says hi papa, you know he calls me amma, l love it. i will talk to you later. until we meet again.

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renee posted a condolence

good morning big, just a little note to say how much i love you. tommorrow is your day, st patricks day. just wanted to let you know that i am thinking about you. gotta go for now, i miss you more than you will ever know. till we meet again, i will love you forever.

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renee posted a condolence

good morning big, its sunday morning, raining like hell, since yesterday, heavy winds really high, looks like we are going to have big floods. jayden is playing in his playpen, calling me. he calls me amma, it is the cutest thing ever. well our new grandchild is due sometime in may or early june. everything is all mixed up around here, everywhere you turn there's issues. oh boy, i would like to put myself under a rock and never come out. i really wish you were here to help me, i need you so much. even if its just to say, ray, calm down, everything will work out ok, when most of the time you were just saying that for my benefit. ever since you have been gone, everything seems like it upside down. i sometimes wonder how to get thru the day, its really hard. i don't feel like getting up in the morning, i can't sleep straight thru all night, i cry all the time, its not fair to the people around me, but i can't help it. i can't get you out of my mind, not for one second. who knew that you could miss someone as much as i miss you, its a constant ache. well this week is your holiday, st patricks day, i wasn't going to make corned beef and cabbage, but genie says he wants some, so i guess i will make a samall pot. won't be the same without you. everytime i look at your picture i am reminded of all the times we had together, and wish that there were more to come. we never really did anything big, most of the time we just stayed home, or went shopping, but the times, all of them were special. i hope in the end on your way to heaven you remembered how much i loved you. i know you loved me. well gene i will talk to you later, and until we meet again, i will love and miss you forever.

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renee posted a condolence

good morning my love, its been a couple of days since i talked to, i am sorry. things are hectic, alot of problems right now. head spinning. i miss you so much. going to dr's this weekend to see if maggies baby is a boy or girl. again, the timing is not right, she is just not thinking, but its our grandchild coming. i hope its a little girl, nice right. well gene i can't say all i want to say now, so i will talk to you again. i want to be with you, i just hope heaven is aa nice as they say, i hope so gene, you deserve peace. i love you. with all my love, until we meet again, renee

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good morning big, its saturday morning 6 am, getting jarred up for work. i have the coffee on, i couldn't sleep. well gene i guess by now you know that freddy passed away. i spoke to his mom yesterday. he missed you so much and according to her he couldn't get over the fact that you were gone. he let himself go, didn't go to the doctors. he was in the hospital once, signed himself out, went home and died on the steps going up to his room. i feel so bad for his mom, she is all alone. if his is in heaven with you, tell him what an ass he is, lol. i know you and him will be fighting over everything, like i used to say, like two old ladies. well gene at least you have someone with ;you that loved you and you loved him, despite all the aggravtion at times. i hope he is resting in peace also. now there is something else i have to tell you. we are going to be grandparents again. maggie is pregnant, and again she did not tell me till 3 days ago. the baby is due in may or june. yes gua is the father, oh boy. you were right about him all along, i know you are different from, you tolerated him because of maggie. i know you told me in the hospital to please keep her away from him, because he would be no good for her and you were right, but he is jaydens father, in name only of course, he has still done not one thing for him or maggie. all babies are blessings no matter what, but this is just not the right time at all. i will love him or her, just like the peen. i just wish you were here. i can't believe that she fell for all his bs, i wish she was smarter, he really is no good, right now is going out again with neek neek, thats all fine and good, that's who he is destined to be with, but i don't want him to bring maggie down. it takes two to make a baby and they were both irresponsible, very, but its too late now. this time things are going to be done the right way, she is going down this week for child support, which is long time coming. he only has one thing on his mind and thats where to get his next bag of weed or who he is going to sleep with next. it such a shame because he has such beautiful children. i hope to god that maggie sees him for who he is, he is only out for himself, he did tell you that, so i guess its the truth, it has to be because all he does think about is himself. he thinks he can soft talk all the girls, what fools they are, i am sorry, i know hes jaydens father, but he is a piece of sh..... everytime i see maggie cry because of him or his family, my heart breaks. i hope she wises up. well gene theres all the news, not very happy is it. i am trying to cope with everything the best way i can, it is not easy. i need your strength, as must as you can send. help me thru whats going to be a long ride. i miss you everyday. i love you so much, i really wish i could be with you. someday. i will talk to you later, sleep well with the angels, keep an eye on freddy. with all my love, renee

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good morning big gene, well 5 months gone, it feels like a dream, a nightmare. i miss you so much. i went food shopping on the 2nd and all i could think about was you. its almost time for st. patricks day, your day, corned beef and cabbage. how you used to look forward to that day. everyday there is something that brings you back to mind, food, a joke, something silly. well gene its not fun trying to get thru a day, i am sad all the time, can't function the right way. i only have the kids, but i can't be sad areound them all the time, especially jayden. we have some big issues coming up right now, boy how i need you. i will try to handle them the best i can. i love you gene more than you know, i will be thinking about you always. have to go for now. i will talk to you later, and until we meet again, i will keep you in my heart and soul.

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good morning big, well its sunday morning, jayden is up and watching blues clues,maggie is awake, the rest sleeping. i told you we were getting a big snow storm and we did. lots of snow. maggie and louie took the peen sleigh riding, he had such a good time, maggie put a video of them on her phone. he loved going down on the sled. tuesday you will be gone 5 months. time flies, but i am stuck on october 2, the day you left me. that day will always be on my mind. in fact sometimes thats all i can think of.joan from the bakery called me the other day and we had a long talk. she got hit by a van in shoprites parking lot and was hurt really bad. she had to have alot of surgeries. i feel so bad for her. she is still mourning the loss of her husband its been 2 years now, she told me the pain never goes away and she is right. at one point she tried to kill herself, i understand that. gene, i miss you so much, i am always looking for you. i hope when my time comes what they say is right that i will see you again and we can be together, i hope so. i hope you are resting easy, i know if you can see us you can see that we are in big trouble, so much that i don't know if we can ever recover. i tried getting in touch with freddy, but i didn' t, he doesn't call me , in fact no one calls me, not frankie, freddy, lisa, even my mother. she has never called to see how i am doing since the day you died. the only one that calls me is richies mom. every week. well gene enough of all that's wrong. you are the only one i can talk to. nobody else is really interested in anything. know that i will love you forever, and i can't wait to see you again. i am always feeling alone and sad, at least if yuou were here, you would make me laugh or even argue with me, but that didn't last long. i miss all that. sleep peacefully and until we meet again, i will love and miss you forever. talk to you later.

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hey big, just wanted to say good morning to you. we are waiting on a 3 day snow storm, can't wait, i love it. things are bad, really bad, different things going on with all of us. please watch over us. i will talk to you later, i miss so much it hurts. i will love you forever, i will never get over losing you. the pain is so bad. well let me go now, till we meet again, i will love you and keep you in my heart. love, renee

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GOOD MORNING GENE, JUST WANTED TO SAY HI AND I LOVE YOU. COLD RAINY MORNING,BLAH. LOTS TO TELL YOU, WILL TALK TO YOU LATER. I MISS YOU MORE THAN EVER. YOU ARE ALWAYS ON MY MIND. FOREVER MY LOVE, RENEE

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good morning big, this to me is our special time. well its really cold outside, no more snow so far. i know you would be complaining that you are cold, i love this weather, the more snow the better, lol. everything is just about the same here, all messed up. i am going to make some deceisions, i just know that everybody is not going to like them, but i need to do something, otherwise i will be living in a women's shelter. i don't know what really to do, but i will do something. well gene please keep an eye on us, i will talk to you later. i miss you so much, i will love you forever. renee

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hey big, good morning. just wanted to talk to you this morning and say hi. i miss you. i can't say right now what is in my heart, it would take too long. just know that i am always thinking about you about us. i will talk to you later. i will love you forever, renee

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happy valentines day in heaven big. today is the day to celebrate love, and that we had. its special days like today that i miss you more. i wish you were here with me, i need you more than ever.things are just not the same without you. we never had much, but we always remembered the little things that really mattered. you would have given me chocloates last night instead of today and i would tell you, come on gene tommorrow is the holiday, and we would argue, but i always let you win. you were such a little kid when it was time to give a gift. i loved every minute of it. sometimes i wonder if it weren't for me if the kids would have believed in santa clause, the way you were, you always gave them hints and i had to stop you from giving them anything before christmas. when i sit and think about all the times we had, i smile, a bittersweet smile, because there will be no more of those times with you. i feel so empty without you, lost. well gene this is supposed to be a happy day, to share love with that special someone. i will be spending today with you in my heart and mind. oh and by the way, the kids kept tradition, we gave each other our valentines last night. lol. well gene rest easy knowing that you are loved today and always, i send all my love and kisses to you. watch over us. you will always be my special valentines. never forget our times together, i know i won't. jayden says happy valentines day papa. he ate all of his candy last night and then got the runs, oh well its a holiday. well be at peace today, say hi to my dad and aunt angie. happy valentines day again, you are my heart and soul. i will think of you all day today. i will talk to you later. gene, you are my greatest love, never forget that. i will love and miss you forever. renee

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good morning big, its me again. im not a pain in the but, am i , lol. well sunday will be valentines day. i guess we wont be fighting over creams or nuts in the candy. i will miss you so much that day, like everyday. you will always be my valentine. i love you and i will talk to you later. i miss you big, i miss you. forever in my heart, renee

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good morning big, well the snow sure came down, around l5 inches or so. it is beautiful. maggie took jayden outside yesterday afternoon and made a snowman with him. he was so excited, he even was eating the snow. it was so deep he just kept falling down and laughing and throwing snow at maggie. she took pictures. i wish you were here to see it. if what they say is true, then maybe you did see him out there, i hope so. well it was slippy this morning so daemon and genie walked me. all they did was talk about when you would slip walking the dog or when you walked me and i would pull you down. we laughed all the way. i miss that. i know that you are in heaven, good people always go to heaven. i hope there will be a spot for me next to you. we will be together again. you told me in the hospital that you were afraid to die because you would miss me too much, believe me, i miss you so much. well let me go for now, i will talk to you later, i will love and miss you forever, tell my dad and aunt angie i said hi. till we meet again, you are forever in my heart. i love you.

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good morning my love, just wanted to let you know that i miss you. by the way the colts lost, oh boy. it was a good game. we missed you there. made chili. well we are waiting for a huge snow storm tonight. alot of snow.maybe we will take jayden out to play in it. i love you gene. rest in peace. i will talk to you later, you are always on my mind. i will love you forever, renee

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hi gene, wanted to say good morning to you. i just wanted to tell you what happened last night. the baby went into our bedroom and found your cane, i keep it there, in the same spot as always, he came out and was holding it and banging on the floor with it, we asked him, jayden what are you doing, he said papa papa.you see gene he does remember you. how can he forget the greatest papa ever. he was your little man. gene he is so smart, he's my joy. i would be lost without him. he's beautiful, the biggest smile you ever saw, and almost all his teeth. he eats with his own fork and spoon all by himself, with a little mess, lol. he talks a blue streak, not always able to understand him, but most of the time we can. he knows football for sure. you wouldn't have it any other way, would you. you would really enjoy him now, the boys love being with him, especially on sundays. he's always yelling touchdown. well gene let me say goodbye for now. i hope you are at peace. i love you more than life itself. i miss you. i am lost without you. watch over us. i will talk to you later. forever in my heart, renee

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good morning big, i am so glad i had you in my life, even though to me a short time. its been 4 months, cant get over losing you, it is getting harder and harder everyday. i remember little things all the time, funny, sad, whatever, i remember. always. i hope you are resting in peace and watching over us. i need you so much. i wish i could talk to you one more time, hear your voice, look into your beautiful blue eyes. well gene we will be thinking about you superbowl sunday. you are loved and missed so much by all of us, just know. i will talk to you later, ill love you forever big, in my heart and mind. renee

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hey dad its your son daemon.....superbowl is in a week GO COLTS!!!! yea i been feelin really depressed lately.i got alot on my plate right now you know with mommy strugglin and you not bein here my days just suck.but i know you wouldnt want me to be upset or anything but its kinda hard.i just hope i could be just as good of a man as you were.it takes alot out of me when i think of you and its takin even more with me writin this cuz that means your not here anymore and its hard to accept.just wish i could see you or be around you again ya know?well dad just though i could come here and talk to you too let some of this off my chest.i cry alot thinkin about you but i dont let anybody see because i wanna stay strong for the family.im getting tired now so im gunna get some sleep.i love you alot dad and im pretty sure you know that..miss you times a million.talk to you soon

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good morning big, well its 9:30 am, sitting here watching the unexpected snow come down. it is beautiful. its slippy (lol) there were 2 accidents in front of the shop already. they went plowing, so i am here alone, just thinking about you. well none of our teams made it in the superbowl, but the colts did so that's who we are routing for. oh well, the jets didn't make it, yes. this will be your first superbowl not with us but i am sure you and dad will watch from above. i hope so. well just wanted to say hi and tell you that i love you very much. i will talk to you later, see ya big. my love forever, renee

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good morning big, sitting here thinking about you. next week you will be gone 4 months, its unreal. i can remember the day you passed so clear in my mind. i replay it over and over again. i should have stayed when you fell asleep, but i think that was your way of telling me it was time and you didn't want me there when god took you. i am so happy that you were clear minded for 5 minutes while i was there, you told me you loved your kids and told me not to cry. i guess you knew it was time. well gene i trully hope that you are pain free and i know that you are at peace. remember, god only takes the good ones too soon. maybe your mom and dad wanted you to be with them. whatever the reason your in good hands. i miss you so much. tell my dad and aunt angie i think about them all the time. i will talk to you later, forever in my heart, renee

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good morning gene, just wanted to say hi, im missing you, i know i tell you everyday, but its the truth. the hurt is bad, empty. just wanted to tell you that jayden says i love you now and he tells you all the time that he loves you. he talks to your picture on your ashes, its so cute but very hearbreaking. you were such a good papa. well gene gotta go for now. i will talk to you later. forever my love, renee

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good morning big, i am feeling sad today, very sad. my being depressed is getting worse everyday. i miss you so much, things are not good. i need your help, send me some strength. watch over us and i will talk to you later. i will lover you forever gene and miss you more. forever in my heart, renee

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good morning gene, missing you so much. i dreamed about you last night. i dreamnt that you were well and coaching football and having so much fun like you always did. well gene no matter how i wish i know you will never be back. i just want you to always know how much i love you. well gotta go for now, talk to you later, i wish you were here. in my heart forever, renee

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good morning big, just a little reminder of how much i love and miss you. i will talk to you later. know that you are forever loved and missed by all of us. jayden says hi papa. he talks to you everyday. keep an eye on us, especially the peen. i will miss you forever, i love you, renee

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good morning big, just wanted to say i am thinking about you, you will be forever in my mind and heart, i love you gene. i miss you so so much it hurts, but you know that already. i will never get over you. talk to you later, rest well. renee

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good morning big, just want tosay i miss you and love you very much. it's snowing, it looks nice. miss you walking me to work. i will talk to you later, love forever, renee

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good morning big, its me, sitting here, its cold outside and we are getting snow again tommorrow. well gene the holidays past and it was just as i thought, sad. especially new years eve, it was really bad. i hope this year brings some joy, last year is gone, and i know it was rough, but now a new year started and you won't be in any part of it, only in my heart. i miss you more and more everyday. well gotta go for now, rest easy my greatest love, i will talk to you later, you are forever in my heart and soul, i'll love you forever.until we meet again, renee

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hi big, well the year will be ending soon, and what a terrible year it was. i lost you, i lost everything. i can't believe it will be 3 months that you are gone. everything seems like a blur to me, one day you are here and than in an instant you are gone. i miss you so much. now that new year is beginning its supposed to be a happy time, but to me it brings more of the feeling of loss. 2009 will be the worst year of my life except for the loss of my father. i can't see myself welcoming in a new year without you. it's killing me gene. if i could only go back a year ago, i know you were sick then too but you were here and who knew that god would take you so quick. i know you suffered so much, and i am glad that part is over, it was a terrible time, watching you waste away, losing your thoughts and being in pain. i know you covered up alot of the pain, but i saw thru it, all the time. i will be with tonight at midnight, i will be sending you my new years kisses and hugs. watch over us in the coming year. happy new year my greatest love, i will miss you forever. rest well and know that i will do my best to keep us all together and try our best to be happy. i told my father and aunt angie to keep you close. just know how much you are loved. talk to you later.forever in my heart, renee

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good morning big, its just me again, tuesday morning 6:30. it is so cold out today, really really windy, i thought i would freeze to death coming here. well gene the year is going to be at an end, and it was just the worst year ever, but now a new year will start and that will be another bad year, i have to start without you, i just don;t think i can bear it. they say it is going to snow for the new year, like a new white blanket covering everything also like a fresh start, i hope. i miss you more than words can say. my heart breaks for you, i know how much you would have wanted to be here in body not just in spirit. i promise to try to get myself out of this feeling of despair, i will try gene, but it is going to be very hard. well let me go for now, i will talk to you later, until we meet again, i will love you forever, renee

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merry christmas in heaven gene. well somehow i got thru last night and today, it wasn't easy but i tried really hard. i did what you asked and read the kids your letter. they laughed and cried. last night was ok, my mom was sick with a virus, i really wasn't into the whole thing, but i did it out of respect for my mom and dad. i think this is the last year mom is doing it, there was a little friction in the air last night and turned into a shouting fest, i felt so sorry for my mother. but anyway we got thru that, it ended peacefully i guess, enough to go on with the hobbies, then we left. daemon and jarred stayed home, they weren't really feeling the holiday either. today was fun with jayden, he was so excited about his football, that's all he walked around with most of the day, telling everybody to catch. you know to me that's what the holiday is all about. having a child around, they are so innocent and full of wonderment, he had all of us excited watching him open his gifts. you were missed so much today, like everyday, but of course special occasions like today are always the hardest. i know they say life goes on, but i don't want to live the rest of my life knowing i will only see you in the afterlife. i feel you around me alot, i talk to you when i am alone like if you were here, i know it sounds crazy but its true, i talk to your ashes everyday. gene i know you would want me to be happy and in a way know you are in a better place but i don't think i will ever be happy again. i have things to distract me, work, the kids, jayden but when i am alone the craziest thoughts come to my mind, i am only 52, i probably have some years to go and all those years i have to spend without you. i can't bear the thought sometimes. nobody understands what i am going thru and i guess that's a good thing because in order for them to understand they would have to go thru it and i don't want that. i guess i am rambling on, but that's whats on my mind now. the night is winding down, and the nights are the worst. well gene its time for me to go now, i will talk to you tommorrow. i wish you could have been with me today and everyday but i know it can't happen. i love you gene with all my heart and soul. i will see you in my dreams, until then goodnight, rest in peace and please watch over us. love always and forever, renee

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good morning big, its thursday morning around 7:30, christmas eve. i am not looking forward to these days. the tree is up, some presents wrapped, sauce is cooking for tomorrows lasagna, but you are not here to enjoy any of it. gene, i miss you so much. i feel like i am holding my breath all the time waiting for you to come back home, i know it sounds stupid, but i can get thru the day sometimes thinking like that. i don't want to be sad all the time but it is just a natural state right now. i never realized how much one person could miss another, it is such an empty feeling. like i said before, i think god sent jayden as our angel, he gets me thru some of the hard days, and you know gene, he remembers you. right now he thinks you are santa clause, and keeps asking for a football, which maggie found last night. you would be so amazed at how smart he is, its wonderful having him here. he knows your picture and always says papa, he kisses your pictures, and once in a while goes into the bedroom, i know he is only a baby but i know he misses you too. he will always know who you are, always. well gene, i have to go now, i will miss you more today and especially tonight, i will miss my early present, you know you could never keep a bean. lol. i would give up the little i have for ever just to have you here one more holiday. my mind and heart will be with you, as always. see you in my dreams. tell santa jayden was a good boy. i will talk to you tommorrow. i will love you forever. merry christmas eve, my greatest love. forever in my heart, renee

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hey big, just sitting here, its saturday afternoon, watching shawshank redemtion, again, and jarred laughing at me, he says i watch it everytime its on. i made your favorite christmas cookies last night, me and maggie and jayden, he played with the dough. the italian anisette cookies that lisa makes, they came good. i wish you were here to eat them. daemon and christine left for buffalo this morning, they just called and they are in albany, new york at a stop. i didn't have the heart to open your ashes and send some with them. i hope you understand gene, i did not want to unrest you. i know daemon brought a little of you with him, that's all he talked about, how he wished you were here so you could have gone with them, but you are in his heart, im sure. like i told you before, things are just no good here, very bad as a matter of fact. i feel so empty without you, i have no one to talk to. nobody calls to ask how i am, not even my mother. no one. i guess i can understand why my mother doesn't call, she is mad at me along with everybody else. i feel alone without you. that's why you always said it was me and you and it was. i feel alot of guilt about whats going on here. well gene its almost christmas, and by the way, we are going to get a snow storm today, you know how much i love the snow. i wish you were here with me, nothing is the same and it will never be. gene watch over us, tell my dad and aunt angie that i send my love. tell your mom not to nag you too much, lol. and tell her i love her too. i will talk to you later. sleep well, see you in my dreams, i will love you forever. renee

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good morning big, its thursday 6:30 and cold, cold, cold. i week from today will be christmas eve, i can't even bear the thought of it. i miss you so much, so much. well daemon and christine are going to buffalo this weekend she bought him the bills tickets, they are going to freeze. gene they are taking some of you with them, to sprinkle your ashes on the field. you always said that if one of the boys ever got there and you were gone to do that, so they are. me and jarred sat last night and were talking and he is having a very hard time with you being gone. he's different, sad, quiet, like me, but i will be strong for him and with the others, i will try anyway. ok gene i have to go right now, but i will talk to you later. i love you big and will never get over you leaving me, i miss you so much. you will be forever in my heart, till we meet again, renee

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hey big its me again, its sunday early afternoon, its raining and cold outside today. maggie and jarred are working, jayden is sleeping on the couch. daemon and genie are here. gene i am feeling really down today, nothing seems to be able to get me out of this funk. i have no interest in christmas, its one week away, i didn't shop, well i really have no money to shop with, but i guess i will be able to get each of the kids at least one small thing. i feel guilty about alot of things, i wanted to make this christmas a little special for them, but it will be special since we are together. i feel guilty about things that are going on with me and my sister, with the rent and all. i feel guilty that i can't seem to get myself together enough to go get a second job. after the holidays i will try to make the new year better for all of us. i am going to try to get up think about the future and set things straight. i was thinking about moving in with someone, another lady or something, but i don't know if i can leave everybody, they will have no where to go.i am just so confused about everything, i can't concentrate on anything for a long period of time, that's why i couldn't go get another job, i tried, i was going to go to the a and p, i even talked to the lady. i just have this overwhelming feeling of dispair and like i said i can't concentrate on anything. i am making a promise to myself that the new year will be different. you know gene, i thought i was a pretty strong person, holding everything together, but i am not, i am falling apart, day by day it gets worse. i miss you so much, i can't believe still that you are gone. i cry everyday for you and stay awake at night just sitting and thinking about you. if you can send me some strength, anything, a sign that things will get better. sometimes i sit and say to myself that i don't want to live the rest of my life without you. i would rather be with you. we were a team, me and you, no matter what. i find consolation in the fact that you really did love me with all your heart. my mother once told me that she knew that i was your soul mate, she said she knows how much you loved me. well i want to tell you that buddy is gone, i know you told me along time ago to let him go, so now we did. christine bought daemon a new dog as an eary christmas present, he's cute. jose's father is going back to pr today for good with titi carmen. i guess jose will be a little sad to see his dad go. well gene i am going to say i'll talk to later, sleep well, and as always, i will love and miss you forever, forever in my heart, renee

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good morning to my greatest love, its really really cold, feeling like winter now. 2 weeks before christmas gene, things are a big mess. our tree is up, the one michael bought, its decorated and beautiful, but i just don't feed like seeing all the decorations and festivities. i am dreading the day. i would like to curl up in a ball and stay there, thinking about you and our holidays together. i miss you more everyday gene. it is getting so much worse, i don't know if its because of the holidays but it is really bad. i hope you are resting well, keep a close eye on us, we need you now. well gene i will talk to you later. i will love you forever, you are always in my mind and heart. till we meet again, renee

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hey big how are you doing today? well its finally snowing. gene i got the most beautiful surprise today. you know that if it wasn't for jayden, i really didn't want to celebrate christmas this year, i am so sad and missing you so much, but this afternoon michael came over and he bought us the most beautiful tree. he said he knows that i have had a really bad couple of months and he thought that this would be a nice surprise. it was one of the nicest things that's happened in a long time. of course i cried like a baby, and i told him that you would be so proud of him, and i know you would be. you know gene i really can't get into the christmas spirit without you here, it seems like a dream. i am so used to arguing with you about the tree, the lights, the gifts, lol. but what i will miss most is your spirit around the holiday, you made everybody feel christmas. that's one of the things that jayden will never get to experience. you would have made it all so special for him. well gene just sitting here now waiting for maggie to come from work so i can get dinner on the table. as far as gifts are concerned this year, there will not be many, but i hope in my heart that the love i feel for the kids and you will carry us this year. things are things, material things don't matter much, i would give all that i have to have you here with me again. i just want some of the sadness to go away just for a little while, but as much as i try i can't shake this empty feeling. well i will talk to you again later, i miss you gene and i will love you forever, you can count on that, i will see you in my dreams. rest in peace, say hi to everyone and tell my dad that his namesake made his lonely aunt very happy today and proud. oh and by the way we all have the stomach virus, really bad. watch over us during this hard time. with all my love, forever in my heart, renee

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hey big, well it's 2 months today that you have been gone, i miss you so much, as do the kids. gene, i am so lost without you. they are lighting the tree in new york tonight. we used to watch it together, i am going to miss that tonight. i can't believe that you will not be here for christmas, your favorite holiday. well, genie got home from england safe thank god. he had a good time, but he is going to miss sandra alot. he looks really good, got a huge tattoo on his right upper arm, the one that you and him talked about. he lost some weight, he looks healthy. jarred has a couple of issues with his sugar. remember how you used to nag him about taking his insulin, well he stopped taking it for awile and he wound up in the er, came home and went back today. he is on his way home now. everybody else is basically the same. you know what gene, jarred is taking your loss really hard. he tries not to show it but he is. me, i wear my heart on my sleeve, i am always thinking about you. the thoughts of our times together get in the way of everything. i wish i could see you one more time, hear you one more time. i dream about you almost everynight, i see you always in my dreams. i hold to that all day and sometimes even though i can hardly sleep, i can't wait till i do so i could be with you if only for awhile. well thanksgiving was ok i guess, we all felt the loss, the first holiday without you. i am going to say goodnight now, rest in peace always. i will talk to you again and i will see you in my dreams later. i will love you forever gene. jayden says hello papa. till we meet again, you are forever in my heart, renee

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happy thanksgiving in heaven gene, our first holiday away from each other, who would have believed it. i woke up early this morning and the realization that you weren't here really set in. i told you that sometimes i think you are going to come walking thru the door. well i am trying not to make this a sad day, like i said yesterday i do have alot to be thankful for. i only wish that genie was here, i miss him alot, he will be home on tuesday. well gene i will try to get thru this day the best i can and know that you are in all of our thoughts. we miss you more than you will ever know, but we keep the memories of you alive everyday. say hi to everyone. i love you gene.talk to you later. love forever, renee

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hi big, well its wednesday, around 4:30, i am here alone, maggie, jarred, louie went to get the rest of the stuff for thanksgiving. daemon went for a haircut. well gene i thought i was ready for the holidays, trying to be strong, but i'm not. as much as i love the kids,and i know i promised you that i would keep the holidays alive, i am just not ready. i can't believe that you will not be with us. i miss you so much. i know there is plenty to be thankful for, healthy kids, jayden, my sister, my mom and also thankful that you are not suffering anymore, but it does not heal the hurt i am feeling. like i told you before sometimes i feel like i can't go on, or maybe don't even want to go on. i am so lost without you. my life right now feels like a big blur, like a big fog following me around. well anyway gene i will talk to you tommorrow, say hi to my dad, aunt angie and a hug and kiss to your mom. i am sure she is so happy to see you again. tell her to take good care of you till i get there. sleep well tonight, i will be thinking about you as always, i'll love you forever gene, until we are together again you will be forever in my heart, renee

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good morning big, monday mnorning, just sitting here waiting for the coffee to get done. no work, closed for hunting. well gene it will be thanksgiving in a couple of days, missing you already. i took the turkey out of the freezer yesterday, and i remember how you used to say, make sure you take it out early enough, i am not going to eat chicken, you hated chicken, you would say i will eat brussle sprouts and potatoes, no chicken. lol. its very lonely here without you, i miss all the little routines we had. soon christmas will be here and you know the tree was your thing, you and the boys. me and maggie would sit and wait to hear how you got the biggest tree, but they charged you the wrong price and so you also got the biggest bargain. it was just a christmas tree story, every year. we loved it. jayden knows who santa claus is this year, he waves to him on the tv and says santa. i wish you could be with him this year, he's so smart gene. i get comfort knowing that you were here for his lst christmas, but he didn't understand. i will keep him alive in his mind forever, he will always know who his papa is, i promise. he talks to your picture everyday and says goodnight to you before he goes to sleep. it is the cutest but i get lump in my throat all the time. gene i miss you so much, my life will never be the same without you. i am lonely, sad, mad and heartbroken. i don't know how i will ever get over this, i just know i won't. i feel like even though i have the kids that my life is over. sometimes i just want to see you so bad that i wish i could join you. well gene i will talk to you later, rest well, i will love you forever. forever in my heart, and until i see you again, be at peace. renee

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good morning big, is rainy and warm today, for november its supposed to be cold, oh well, you know me. me and the kids were talking last night and laughing about how the only thing you asked for for thanksgiving was brussle sprouts, imagine that. it is only 6 days till the holiday and i am dreading it already. i promised that i would celebrate the holidays when you weren't here, and i will keep my promise gene, but it will not be easy. well let me go for now and i will talk to you later, as always i will love you forever, miss you so much. until we are together again i will keep the memories of you alive forever, forever in my heart, renee

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just a quick goodmorning big, thinking about you always, talk to you later, i'll love and miss you forever, forever in my heart, renee

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good morning big, there is so much i want to tell you, but it would take too long right now. i promise i will fill you in on everything that's going on. i miss you more everyday gene, as time passes it hurts more and more. sometimes i just want to crawl in a hole and never come out. especially now that the holidays are coming. the thought of spending them without you is killing me. i never thought it would be like this, never. i want to be with you so bad it hurts. just wanted to say how much i love you before i start my day. i will talk to you later. you are my greatest love. forever in my heart. renee

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good morning big, just sitting here waiting to leave, got up at 2, couldn't go back to sleep. its so quiet, jarred and daemon are still sleeping, maggie slept by quas with jayden. i miss him when he's not here. things here are about the same, bad. i wish you were here, i have no one to share my conversations with, well i do but its not the same. i miss you getting up with me in the morning just to say goodbye. i will miss you walking me to work when its slippy, lol. remember how i used to pull you down because i was afraid to fall. all the little things i miss so much. my heart breaks for you everyday. gene, i miss you so much, i can't believe that someone could miss somebody this much, it hurst so bad. well geneboy will be home in a couple of weeks, i can't wait, i miss him. he will miss thanksgiving but he should be home by christmas. oh, by the way daemon and christine are going to a buffalo game, december 20th, she bought the tickets for him for christmas. they are going to take some of your ashes and sprinkle them outside the stadium and inside on the field.. we know how much you would have loved to go to the game,so daemon thought it would be a good idea to take you anyway.i know it will make you happy. well gotta get ready now to leave, say hi to my dad and don't tease him too much about today being friday the l3th. lol. i will talk to you later. i will love you forever. until we meet again, you are always in my heart and mind, renee

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renee posted a condolence

good morning gene,my love. another night without, i can't get used to it. i look for you when i come home, when i wake, during the night. i wish i could hear your voice one more time, see you one more time. even though i visit with you in my mind all day its just not the same. just wanted to say hi and i will talk to you later. forever in my heart, rene

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renee posted a condolence

good morning big, just a quick hello to say i love and miss you. eugene's back today, so our time together is short because he comes in early. i will talk to you later and as always you are forever in my heart. with all my love, renee

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renee posted a condolence

good morning big, its monday morning and i am here, thinking about you. its 7am, been here since 6:15am. well to start off tell my dad that the giants lost 4 in a row. oh boy. genie called bj last week from england and bj hang up on him, lol. you know everybody gets tight. so gene another weekend passed without you, very lonely. getting ready for thanksgiving in another week or so, my heart is just not in it. i am trying really hard, but i can't get that holiday feeling. to me its just another day. we used to enjoy all the holidays together, watching football games all day, having fun, eating till we couldn't eat anymore. and christmas, i know i teased you alot about acting like a baby, but you know it made the holdiay special. we used to hide all your gifts, but somehow you managed to find them and shake the boxes, try to untape them without anybody knowing, but we always knew. now thinking back i would give anything to have at least one more day like that. going with the boys for the tree and arguing with them that it had to be the tallest one there, even if it didn't stand straight when you put it up. remember last years. oh it was tall alright and leaned like the tower of pisa, lol. i don't know if i can get thru the holidays without you. gene, i miss you so much. i talk to you everynight before i go to sleep. i keep all the memories locked inside my heart. i remember everything, all 20 some years. i hope you are resting in peace, i will talk to you later, i love you. forever in my heart, renee

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good morning big, its saturday morning, been up since 4am, so i decided to make homemade chocolate chocolate chip cookie dough to bake later. its now almost 8:30. maggie slept by quas, jarred is working, geneboy is still in england and daemon is sleeping, so i am basically alone, only me and you. it is really cold today there was even a little frost this morning when i took buddy out. yes he is still here, aggravating me every day. we do plan on giving him up we just don't know when yet. we have a little bit of mixed feelings, i know you told me to get rid of him, but we know how much you really loved him, so it's a little hard. he is getting worse with jayden, poor baby can't even walk around the house without buddy going after him. and forget bringing lilliana up here, jose brought her up to me the other day to keep on eye until eric came home and i had to stand up and walk around the house with her, she is really beautiful and she has 2 big dimples, and she laughs alot. oh and by the way you wouldn't have eaten the cookies anyway, you know they have nuts. lol. you always said i put either nuts or peas in everything. gene i hope you are resting well and keeping a close watch on all of us. i know you can see all thats going on and i can feel you in the house all the time. sometimes i forget you are not physically here and start talking to you, thats not a bad thing is it. well gene let me get back to doing things in the house. rest well. i will talk to you later. say hi to dad for me. i love and miss you both very much. gene, i will love you forever and miss you more everyday. forever in my heart,renee

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good morning big, i hope you had a peaceful night. well its really cold today and windy. everybody is complaining at home. no i don't have the air on, lol. but i don't have the heat on either. you know the usual argument. remember when we lived on sheridan ave. and you had to light the pilot for the heat and we used to take your picture while you were on the floor lighting it. well we were going thru pictures the other night and we found those pictures. we also found most of the pictures we took of the kids playing football and baseball. time really does fly. it seems like yesterday. you looked so healthy in those pictures. we found pictures of you and each of the kids the day they were born and they took them to put away. so many things go thru my mind, and i am so glad that we had those memories, they were good gene. i miss you more everyday that goes by, l'll love you forever. or as you used to tell me, i'll love you forever and a day. i will talk to you later, until then, rest easy, and watch over us. forever in my heart, renee

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good morning big, just sitting here waiting for everybody else to come in, eugene is on vacation so adrian doesn't come in until 8 and so does alfredo. i enjoy this time alone with you, nobody around just me and you the way you liked it sometimes. i keep close to my heart all the times we had together, even though the time was too short. i am so happy you were my husband and father to our kids. they talk about you everyday, and cry for you everyday. they talk to your ashes and kiss your picture everynight before they go to bed. sometimes they think i don't see them but i do. jayden talks to you all day and always calls for you. he's so smart, you would be so proud of him. he's really starting to talk now and you would laugh if you saw him watching football with the boys, and he yells touchdown,and says go go go. i love him so much. the days are long and the nights longer without you. i miss you more everyday. gene, i remember what you said awhile ago about louie. he came out of jail and was doing fairly well, i don't know if you remember coming to see you, but he did at home and at the hospital, and gene he really missed you too, alot. but now again things changed for him, he gotted kicked out of his house, doesn't go to work, again sleeping downstairs. i tried helping him again too, the way you told me to. except for sleeping upstairs he has been by us all day everyday, even watching jayden sometimes. now things are starting to change again, his temper, his sticky fingers, yesterday he punced big dents in the refrigerater, because he was screaming on the phone with his girl and i told him to hang up. gene, i can't take all that comotion anymore, i don't want all that loud fighting and destroying things. i don't know what to do anymore. things are getting really bad, i am only working 5 hours a day, i can't pay bills. i have been thinking about just finding one room somewhere or something to share with someone, another old lady, jarred is a big help, but nobody else thinks that things have changed now and we need to pull together as a family. i know they all have their own lives, but they live in the house and a little help would be good. i am sorry to go on and on, but these are the things we used to talk about when you were here, i talk to my sister like i told you before, but she has her own problems too, and one of them is me. i love her and need her but there is only so much she can shoulder too. i miss our talks gene, i am lost, i just don't know which way to turn. well anyway, today is dad's birthday and i talked to him already. i miss him so much too. maggie says, mom i know how you feel now when you lost grandpa, it really hurts. well gene i took up alot of your time today, maybe its just babbling to you and even to me, but i need just to vent once in awhile, and i always did it with you, and you would say, ray don't sweat the small shit and i would get mad at you, and say, you never worry about anything, but i know you did. you loved us. well again let me go for now, say hi to everyone, dad, aunt angie, my grandparents, today is also the day my grandfather was buried, my dads father. watch over us, rest peacefully, and until i talk to you again, i will miss you forever, and love you. you are forever in my heart, l love you gene, renee

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good morning gene, im a little late this morning, i fell back to sleep, i didn't sleep well last night. thinking about you alot. i am so sad gene, i can't help but wonder if we had done something different if things would not have turned out like this. i wanted you to make your own decisions, i felt you knew what was right for you, but in hindsight i should have been more insistent, you were scared of going ahead with the chemo. you thought it would make you leave sooner, but who knows, only you knew how much you could take. i wish that maybe we should have tried it anyway. i guess i shouldn't be going back and forth like this, you made your peace with everything. i kept all my promises to you. i tried anyway and i know deep in your heart you knew i signed you into hospice, i know you did not want to go there, but at the time it was the best place for you to be comfortable. but you got what you wanted, you didn't go there. i hope that i wasn't too hard on you and if i was i hope you can forgive me. maybe i was, it was just so overwhelming seeing you like that so i figured maybe if i was a little hard it would make you get better, i guess i was only fooling myself. you know, when you love someone as much as i love you, you want to put on blinders, so you don't have to see the one you love suffer so much. my sister prepared me, even though i knew our time together was coming to an end, she was there all the time. i know you loved her and she loved you too. well gotta go for now, i will talk to you later, rest easy and don't forget my dads birthday is tommorrow, give him a kiss for me, lol. he'll love that. you are the love of my lift and i will miss you forever. forever in my heart. renee

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good morning gene, its kind of cold this morning, i guess the fall is really kicking in, i used to love this time of year, not any more. its just not the same without you, i know i tell you the same thing everyday, but its the truth. i feel like i can't go on. i always thought i was a strong person, but gene i am really not. i am falling apart. especially as the holidays get closer. if wishes could come true, mine would be to have taken away all your pain and suffering and have you with me. the lonliness is so bad. i put up a good front for everybody, but i feel like i am dying inside. i went to shoprite yesterday, the same way i went the day you passed and i felt like throwing up. you know the elvis presley song, "you are always on my mind". that's true. we used to listen to that song when we were first together and now me and maggie listen to it. well gene just wanted to say goodmorning. rest well and i will talk to you later. say hi to dad and aunt angie.watch over us especially jayden. oh and by the way he knows how to do the chicken dance. he is so beautiful. he's the reason i try to keep going everyday. he truly is our angel. god works in strange ways and i think he sent jayden to us for a reason. he's so smart and really starting to talk now. i love him so much as well as you did. i know he meant everything to you. your little man. i will talk to you later gene, i will love you forever. forever in my heart, renee

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maggie posted a condolence

hey daddy well its been one month without and oo how much do i miss u dad...its not the same without u..i wish i could have had more time with you especially all the important things in my life when i get married u wre suppose to be there to dance butterfly kisses with me..daddy im ur lil girl ur only girl and i know how much u loved me and i loved you just the same..you are the best dad and paapa..jayden talks to u everyday watch over him dad..hes gettin so big..hes so smart just like u..hes the best thing in my life and im so glad i got to give u a grandchild because i know how much u loved him dad.thanxs for always helping me with him if i didnt have u or mommy i dont now how i would of did this on my own.dad i miss u alot sumtimes i come home and pray u will be sitting in ur room but i know it wont come true..i wish u didnt leave but i didnt want u to suffer anymoore..its hard to accept the fact that ur gone and maybe i still havent becasue im being selfish wishing u would come back dad even if it were for a little while..daddy keep all of us safe watch over us dad..well daddy g2g rest now ur fight is over talk to u later love u forever in my heart ~maggie {ur lil girl}~

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renee posted a condolence

good morning gene, today is november 2, one month since you left. its really hard to believe that you have been gone one month, its seems like yesterday, but feels like forever. i miss you more than you know. everything that you take for granted on an every day basis seems so important now. little things that you would do, like resetting the microwave clock when the time changed, i did not know how to do it, can you believe it. just little things like that. gene my heart aches for losing you, i miss you more everyday, the loss is so bad. i think about everything, i read your death certificate over and over again, i think sometime if i don't read it that you did not leave and that you will be walking thru the door. i hope that you are at rest and without pain, but i am selfish, i want you with me and the kids. well i gotta go for now, rest in peace, sleep sound and i will talk to you later, as always gene i will love and miss you forever, i wish i could be with you. forever in my heart, renee

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renee posted a condolence

hey gene, well halloween is gone and jayden had a really good time, you must have seen how cute he looked. he was roaring all over the place. we went by my moms first to go trick or treating and then we came home and maggie took him with michelle and lilliana. lilliana looked so beautiful as a lady bug. she really is filling out and she is so pretty. the bills play today and so do the cowboys, oh boy another tight sunday. jarred has no tv now, so he is going to try to watch it on the computer. well i will talk to you later. probably tomorrow morning, i don't like to talk to you at night because the nights are really long and if i say goodnight to you my nights will be even longer than they are now. so until i talk to you again, i will forever love and miss you more than you will ever know. forever in my heart, renee

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renee posted a condolence

happy halloween gene, just wanted to say goodmorning, we are getting ready to go for breakfast with maggie, jayden, my mother and lisa. we are going to take jayden trick or treating by moms house than come home and go here. its not going to be the same without you gene, but i know you are watching, you'll see how cute jayden is going to look. you were looking forward to taking him, you said you were going to wheel him in your wheel chair, he would have loved that. remember when you used to play vrooooom with him in your wheelchair, he always had so much fun... well we will be thinking about you today as always, watch over jayden today. i'll talk to you later and let you know if he got any rolo's, lol. i love you gene. forever in my heart, renee

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renee posted a condolence

good morning big, its friday morning and its been 4 weeks since you left me, i can't believe it. there is so much i still wanted to say to you. i know we said so much before you were not able to anymore but still when i sit and think, there really is so much i needed to say to you. you told me the day you passed not to cry, but that is easier said than done. i cry everyday for you. not only that you are not with me anymore, but because you suffered so much. i am so sorry for that. rest easy knowing that you will always be missed and loved forever. i want to be with you. watch over us especially jayden. i will talk to you later, gene i'll love you forever. talk to you later. ps don't spook us too much tonight, its goosy night, lol. forever yours, renee

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renee posted a condolence

hi big, just wanted to say hello, just got home at l2, i am sitting here with jayden, he is playing with your hat, remember the one you used to play with him. he says papa's hat, papa' hat. he is just the light of my life, i know he was yours too. remember when we used to say, who loves you more peen, papa or nana, and you used to say, you know its papa. those were such happy days, i'll always keep that in my heart. there is not a day that goes by that we don't remind jayden of you, he will always know who you are, i promise. halloween is saturday and he is going to be a lion, how cute he looks. i wish you were here to see him, but i know you will keep a good watch on him. at least you were able to see all his firsts, halloween, christmas and his first birthday. keep them always in your heart. well let me go for now. i will talk to you later, and as always gene, i will love and miss you forever, forever in my heart, renee

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renee posted a condolence

hey big, it's me again, had a really bad night, thinking about you every time i close my eyes. could not go to work, i did not sleep all night, had a really bad migrane headache, too many things on my mind, i just don't know which way to turn anymore, everything is piling up, feel like there is now way out, i wish you were here to tell me what to do. i can't pay bills, things are all piled up, i feel like i am in a box with no way out. if you can help me from above, please do so. i am scared, i never felt this lost in all my life. i miss you i love you, i need your strength. i had really bad anxiety attacks last night i thought i was having a heart attack. gene, i am so nervous, so upset, i feel like my mind is slipping away from me. i need you so much. well i will talk to you later, rest well. ill love you forever big renee

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renee posted a condolence

hey big, it's me its tuesday afternoon, rainy and damp, you would be freezing, lol, not me you know the air is on, only kidding. oh gene i would give anything for you to be here right now. i miss you so much. i come home everyday to tell you all things that happened all morning, you know the aggravation at work, the little stupid things, the things no body else is really interested in, but you always were. i miss that, i miss you calling my name a l00 times a day, you know, rayyyyyyyyy. i cant get over that i will never come home to you again. you know its times like today when i am alone with only jayden sleeping on the couch that i realiza how lonely it is without you. i sit and rememeber all the things we said to each other, good or otherwise, mostly good. the little things that meant so much to us that would never make a difference to anyone else. it was always you and me. you used to say that all you needed was me and the kids all your life and you would be happy, and you know what gene i believed you. you were loud at times, well most of the time but your bark was worse than your bite. when you loved you loved deep, whether it be me, or the kids or your friends. the holidays will be here soon, and i will miss you even more then, i know how much you loved them. no brussle sprouts this thanksgiving, even though i like them i don't think i could get them down, i know it sounds silly, but its true. things are not good right now, as far as money its concerned, things went from bad to worse, i don't know what i am going to do, so please send some sign or maybe just some strength to me. the kids are doing ok, but like me they have their moments too. they miss you alot. maggie made ragu and sauce, with butter last night and said it was only right if it smelled they way you used to cook it for her. you know its the little things that mean so much. the rememberings is painfull sometimes, but it helps in some ways to ease the pain i am feeling. i renember everything, don't worry. i know you loved me, and i loved you. like i said before you only find that kind of love once in a lifetime, and i found it in you. you are my everything. well just wanted to say hi, and i miss you. sending you a hug and kiss to wrap aroung yourself, and for now i will say so long and i will talk to you later, i'll love and miss you forever, forever in my heart. renee

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renee posted a condolence

good morning gene, its friday, wow, just another day without you. im sorry that i carry on everyday about you, i know i promised i wouldn't when the time came, but gene i miss you so much. the tears just flow sometimes just looking at something or hearing something or just for no reason at all. i don't think im going to make it, i thought i was strong but only when i have to be. i love you so much. rest in peace for now, i will talk to you later. ill love you forever, renee

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renee posted a condolence

good morning big, im thinking so much about you this morning, things are really crazy for me right now, i need you to send me strength. i hope you are getting all the rest you need and are at peace. i miss you big, so so much. i feel so empty without you. well i'll say see you for now. i will talk to you later, i will love you forever. renee

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hey gene, well today is sunday and i am sitting here with jayden, maggie and jarred are at work and daemon went with ceez to watch the games. well the giants are losing to the saints and the bills play at 4, genie and daemon are hoping for a win (oh boy) lol. i hear from genie at least 3 times a day, he's having a good time, misses home, and talks about you everyday, he misses you. its times like this when no one is here but me and jayden that i feel so alone, gene i miss you so much that sometimes i feel like i can't go on. i want to be with you, sometimes i feel like i cant breath, the sadness is so overwhelming. i have the kids and i have my sister, thank god, but its not the same as having you here with me. the emptiness is terrible and no one can understand the feeling unless they live it, which i don't wish on anybody. i now know how my mother feels and she says it never gets better and she is right, its been three years since my dad left and only weeks since you left and i feel worse now as every day passes. i will never get over losing you, especially since we were only together for me a short time. we celebrated our 20th in the hospital and i remember you saying that on our 21st we were going to get re-married the way we always said we would, now that will never happen. you always laughed and said we would not do it on our 20th because that's what normal people do and you were not that normal. lol. i stay up at night thinking about everything, and it is killing me. i felt so lost when my father died, i thought it probably was one of the worst hurts ever, but no hurt feels worse than the loss of you. you were a good husband, father and papa, and i know you adored jayden as he did you. i will make sure that he always knows who you were and how much you loved him. i am so sorry that you suffered so much, you endured alot of pain and i know how hard you tried to not make it as bad as it was. well i hope you are at peace, know that you are truly loved and missed. i will keep you in my heart forever. i will talk to you later but until then rest in peace and know that i will try to keep our family intact and happy, the way you would have wanted it. i'll love and miss you forever, and one day i will be there to hug and kiss you again. i will be forever yours. love, renee

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renee posted a condolence

good morning big, well you must be laughing, its cold and rainy and i finally had to shut the ac and put on the heat, lol. i know you would have been yelling at me that it is cold. i miss you teasing me about the ac, i miss you this time of year, because we both enjoyed the fall and winter. the holidays will not be the same especially christmas, i know how much you loved that holiday, we used to call you a big kid. and you were, but you made the holiday fun. jayden will understand a little this year and i am so sorry that you will miss that. i wish so hard that you were with me, i miss you so much. well let me go for now, iwill talk to you later. here's a big hug, love you gene miss you more and more everyday. renee

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renee posted a condolence

good morning gene, im in work and thinking about you as i do every day. i miss you and love you so much, and i just wanted to say hi. i'll talk to you later, but for now help me get thru this day. love forever and a day, renee

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Sandra posted a condolence

I'm really sad I never got the honor of meeting you. From all the stories and fond memories Gene's told me, you seemed like an amazing person and I'm truly unlucky that I never got the chance to meet you. Gene talks about you all the time, and he misses you a lot. He told me you were in a lot of pain before, but you're not anymore. Although I might not gotten the honor of meeting you in this life, hopefully I'll be more lucky in the next. See you there. - Sandra

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Gene posted a condolence

Hey dad, bills suck. Every time I watch a Bills game or hear about them, I think of you. And the damn forward-lateral. I remember you screaming at the top of your lungs and Joey running home from the store because he could hear you screaming. Miss you. Sorry I couldn't get a flight back in time for your funeral. Been thinking about you lately, especially since I'm so close to Ireland. I know you always wanted to visit there, so I think maybe one weekend me and Sandra will go and see castles for you. I'll look for the one that mommy gave you the picture of. Love you. And see you later.

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michelle posted a condolence

well gene it's been a whole already and i think it is just starting to sink in that we really will never see you again in this life...i have been so busy trying to be strong for my sister that last night it just finally hit home and i can't tell you how much i am going to miss you...ya know sometimes you go through life taking for granted that the people we are close to will be around forever especially when it's your parents so i know what your kids are going through right now but it also happens when it is someone like you who has always been a part of my kids lives and mine to...we just always knew you were there for us , especially when cody got loose..lol...we will never hear that bellow of yours in the hall saying "RAY" or "this is horse shit"...lol..you won't be coming around the corner with buddy and you won't be on the porch scratching your rub offs but where you will be is in every one of us that you loved and cared for...we will all carry a piece of you in our hearts for all time...remember "stop thief" how much it aggreviated you to play with us because we didn't follow the rules we played our own way...lol...oh and how about trivial pursuit...renee's lists for the store oh my god how you hated them...lol...you were a good brother in law and a great uncle and i will always be grateful for having had you in our lives...rest in peace...tell my dad i love him...and aunt angie to...ann you have your genie home with you now take care of him for us...i know we will all be together some day again where life will go on until then take our love with you and be at peace

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renee posted a condolence

hey gene, well its been one week since your gone, who would have believed it, i can't. we picked up your ashes yesterday and put them by my fathers picture, we have a candle lit between you both. we will never forget either one of you. gene, i miss you so much, i feel so empty inside, im always looking for you or waiting to hear your voice. i love you so much and you were right when you told me we didn't have enough time together, we didn't. there were so many good years we could have had. you always said after the kids were grown we could start doing things for us, but now i can only dream about the things we talked about. i am so sorry that you suffered so much, so much that i guess i really never realized how much, you hid alot, and know you did that for me and the kids. if you are at peace now and you are not in pain, i guess i am happy, but that doesn't make the pain i am feeling over you leaving any easier. gene boy calls everyday at least 3 times a day, he's ok, but he misses everyone here and i think he feel a little guilty about not being able to get a flight back, i told him you would understand and i know you would, you made sure that he went, you told him over and over again. daemon and jarred talk everyday about you and how much they miss you as well as maggie. you know gene we think jayden can see you when nobody else can, and if he does see that's a good thing. he calls to you by the bedroom everyday and today he talked to your picture and showed you his elmo book. i know how much you loved him and he loves you, i will always make sure he knows everything about his papa. he will grow up knowing that he was the light of your life. well i just wanted to say hi and let you know that i love you with all my heart, and miss you more than you will ever know. rest in peace, watch over us, and once in awhile send me a little sign that you are with me. you will always be in my heart and soul. i will miss you forever. my life will never be the same without you. goodnight for now, until i see you again say hi to everyone, kiss my dad for me, lol. im sending you a big hug and kiss gene, smile down on me, i love you.

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Ed Thomas posted a condolence

I attended Our Lady of Lourdes Grammar School in Paterson with Eugene. He was always a nice kid. All of us had nicknames and one of his of course was "carrot top". I think of him now and then. Sounds like he grew up to become a great guy. My sincere condolences to the family.

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Daemon posted a condolence

Hey Pops whats going on as you can see its daemon..im sittin in my room watchin ESPN and they where talkin about football so i started to think of you...it still hasnt sunk in that your gone but im tryin to stay strong for mommy and everybody else..i miss you alot and i know we would fight and yell alot but i still thought you where the best dad ever..you did things with me and my other sibling that not alot of other dads did..you coached me threw football helped me in baseball my schoolwork and was even there when i needed somebody to cry too..its hard to try and put it in words how much i miss and love you dad but im trying lol..but i do know i will have the best memories a son can ask for abouth there father..like the poem you had says anybody can be a father but it takes a real man to be a dad and thata what you were...i love you and dont worry its not goodbye its see ya later and believe me ill see ya later...love you dad

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maryann denova russo posted a condolence

went to elementary school at our lady of lourdes with eugene lots of fond memories i am so sorry to hear about his passing

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NATASHA posted a condolence

HEY EUJIM(LOL), TODAY WAS YOU VIEWING AND THEY COMBED YOUR HAIR LOL.... AS MUCH AS I WANTED TO MESS IT UP I DIDN'T...ANYWAY, IT WAS HARD UNC, IT WAS HARD SEEING YOU LAY THERE, IT WAS HARD HOLDING BACK TEARS, IT WAS HARD NOT KNOWING IF YOU COULD HEAR MY PRAYERS. IT WAS HARD LISTENING TO PEOPLE TALK AROUND YOU, LISTENING TO OTHER PEOPLES MEMORIES OF YOU, BUT IT WAS EVEN HARDER TO SEE THE ONES THAT LOVED YOU BREAK DOWN, TO SEE MY AUNT, YOUR CHILDRENS MOTHER, AND YOUR ONE TRUE LOVE HAVE TO LET GO OF WHAT SHE HELD ONTO FOR SO LONG, HER LOVE. BUT I'M SURE WITH ALL THE LOVE AND MEMORIES YOU GUYS SHARED THROUGH THE YEARS, SOMEWAY, SOMEHOW, SHE ALWAYS HAVE YOU NEXT TO HER, RIGHT BY HER SIDE JUST LIKE YOU'VE ALWAYS BEEN. I GUESS WE'LL NEVER KNOW WHY THINGS AREN'T ALWAYS AS WE IMAGINE THEM TO BE, BUT IT'S ALWAYS NICE TO KNOW THAT IN OUR LIVES SOMEONE LIKE YOU EXISTED AND LEFT US WITH LOTS OF LOVE AND MEMORIES. WELL JIM(LOL), I GUESS FOR NOW IT'S FAREWELL TIL NEXT TIME. I HOPE WHEREVER YOU GO IT'S BETTER THAN SUFFERING AND PAIN THAT YOU HAD TO ENDURE DURING YOUR LAST DAYS HERE ON EARTH. I HOPE IT'S JUST AS BEAUTIFUL AS THAT LIL GINGER BREAD HOUSE I GAVE YOU A LONG LONG TIME AGO.

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gabby posted a condolence

heyy unc well today wusx your funeral and i hate to tell youh buht i cried my eyesx out i kculdnt let youh goo..we have soo many memoriesx together and ima miss youh sooo much..uncle gene your likke another father to me and youh taught me alot of thingsx too..ima miss watchin youh walk the dog and helping youh go to the store all dha time..im gunna miss goin up stairsx and asx youh open the door say here comesx trouble...uncle gene im never gunna forget youh ..youh are alwaysx in my heart and i dont want youh to forget me either..well gotta go unc talk to youh soon i love and miss youh!!!! ur lil trouble maker gabby!!!!

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michelle posted a condolence

so many memories we have shared i don't know where to begin...but whenevr i think of you it will be with great humor because the silly and rediculous things that you did over the years always made me laugh..."ya see this is the problem" gene we are going to miss you more than you could ever have imagined. everytime jose says "jim" you will be there...every football game that bj or the boys watch you will bethere saying NEER HE GOES...every flag that is pulled off of a little one belt you will bethere...you were babysitter to my kids..uncle...unk...big..jim...eujim or just plain gene but to all of us you were really something...say hello to dad and aunt angie never stop telling your stories and i will always make sure Jayden knows just how much he meant to you...its time for you to rest now brother in law you fought a good fight...

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maggie posted a condolence

hey daddy its me well 3 days are gone now and i still cant believe ur not here maybe i will never believe it..i love u so much dad even though at times i didnt show it but ur the best dad anyone could ever have..im so happy u were my dad..u taught me and the boys so much..its sad that ur gone but in my heart i know ur pain free now and maybe u can feel better now dad..im so glad u got to see jayden he really loves u dad and im pretty sure he wouldnt choice any other papa but u..dad please watch over him make sure hes safe..i p romise u that he will play football so u can watch from above and cheer for him like u wanted to..he will always know about u and know howmuch he meant 2 u..i wish i could talk to u one last time and tell u how sorry i am for every time we argued dad becasue u know i love u very much im ur lil girl..remeber daddy butterfly kisees :) i love u dad

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jayden posted a condolence

d ear papa its me the peanut... i saw you last night papa u came to me to make sure i was ok..i smiled when i saw u..i miss u so much papa, i miss watchin movies and listen to music with u papa..im gonna miss u watchin me when my mommys workin.. i didnt have that much time with u like my uncles and my mommy did but the time i did i loved u are the worlds best papa ever..im gonna miss u papa..come back and visit me papa i wanna smile at ur face again i love u papa.. love always ur grandson jayden(peanut)

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reneer posted a condolence

hey gramps, today is sunday and you have been gone for 3 days and it feels like an enternity, i miss you so much, it still hasn't sunk in that i will never see you again, here on earth. i hope you are at peace now and in no more pain. im doing everything you wanted me to do when this time came. not alot of stinky flowers, haha. no big party afterwards, and you are being cremated the way you always wanted it. i can't imagine spending the rest of my life without you, it hurts so much, but i would be selfish if i wanted you to stay and be in pain and not having the ability to think clearly. you told me awhile ago that we didn't have enough time together, and you were right, but the time we did have together, although not always easy, we both knew that we loved each other with all of our hearts. you my sole mate and i know i was yours, you told me so many times. you were a good dad, husband and papa. your kids know how much you loved them and were always there for them, and that is whats important, they will carry that love all through their lives. jayden, i know the apple of your eye, talked to you last night outside and i know he say you, gene always watch over him and keep him safe, as well as all your kids. they miss you so much. i know i should be happy that there is no more suffering but i miss you, my heart really hurts, im trying to stay strong, you told me not to cry too many tears and that you will always be with me. stay with me. i will love you forever and a day, remember. for now i will say goodbye and i will talk to you later. say hi to my dad and everybody else, i love you gramps, wait for me, someday we will be together again, rest now and i will talk to you later. unti we meet again, renee

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Andrea posted a condolence

I liked you from day one.Tattoos and all! I will never forget always hoping I had you as a hobby come Christmas time.(The easiest person to buy for) I will miss our talks of games, books and just silly stuff. You are with some very loved people, they will guide you now.When you see Mom and Uncle Mickey and Grandma let them know we love and miss you all so much.You loved your wife and your children - you are to be admired & respected for that alone.Will never forget you and I will be there if they ever need me Gene ....Promise. Find peace my friend..... I will miss you. Nothing but love to all, Andrea

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renee posted a condolence

happy thanksgiving in heaven gene, second holiday without you, hurts so much. i wish you were here with us. as we sit down today at dinner you will be with me in spirit, i love you with all my heart. wish so bad that we could be together again. we bought a blueberry pie in honor of you, i know one of your favorites. rest in peace.

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renee posted a condolence

good morning gene, sunday morning, i am here with jayden watching cartoons. everyone else is sleeping. a couple of days before thanksgiving, going to take the turkey out of the freezer,youknow i always think its not going to defrost. missing you so much, especially this time of year.you loved the holidays. its going to be a struggle this year for christmas. really bad. i wish you were here, i am so lost without you. even when things got bad, i always had you to lean on. my heart is with you all the time, there is not a day that goes by that you are not on my mind. know that you are missed by all of us. i guess it was you that kept the family together,i feel that i am a bother to the kids, they don't treat me very nice and that hurts me. well gene i will talk to you soon. i will love and miss you forever. rest in peace.

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renee posted a condolence

good morning gene, i haven't talked to you since halloween,trouble with the computer,oh boy.well gene came home safely, he misses sandra and is filing papers for residency.i guess he will be leaving after the new year.i finally heard from jarred and he is doing fine, thank god.the holidays are around the corner and the thought of another year without you kills me. i miss you so much. the babies are getting so big. andrew looks just like maggie, rememeber her face when she was a baby, same hair too. work is the same, getting no where fast,don't know what to do about christmas,no money. well gene jayden is standing here saying hi papa, and telling me he is hungry and wet.lol. i will talk to you soon. i will keep you forever in my heart. i will love you always. save a nice spot for me, and until we meet again,rest with the angels. i love you.

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renee posted a condolence

good morning big,happy halloween in heaven. its a beautiful day today,going to take jayden and andrew out later. jayden is a ninja and andrew a clown. i know how much fun you had with our kids when they were small and i know you would have had a great time with jayden and andrew. i am so happy that you were able to see jayden's first halloween. andrew is going to miss that special time with you but i will be there and as the years go on,i will make sure he knows all about you. jayden shows him your picture all the time,not that he understands now, but he will. as the holidays are coming fast, i feel the loss of you more and more, it does not get easier, i miss you so much. well gene,iwill talk to you later.ilove you with all my heart. rest in peace always. until we meet again

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renee posted a condolence

good morning gene, saturday morning sitting here with maggie and the boys. having my coffee and thinking about you. our grandsons are beautiful and getting so big. you would just love andrew, looks like you and maggie especially when he smiles, with all his gums. lol. i have been sick for a week now, problem with my right lung, i am in alot of pain. i didn't go to work, so you know what that means. oh boy. gene will be home on the 6th of november, i miss him. jarred keeps to himself down in texas, i miss him and hearing his voice. he has his own problems and just does not want help from his family. my heart is broken over the situation. well the holidays are right around the corner, mom is not having xmas eve this year. we are having thanksgiving dinner with michelle and her family which i think will be nice. i really don't enjoy the holidays anymore, buthaving the babies here helps. you loved the holidays, like i always say, you were like a big kid,we loved it. i thought that a year passing would ease the pain a little bit, but it has not. to me it gets worse, just another year without you. i sit and think alot about everything and wonder how could this have happened so soon, but i guess its gods way. i question everything and find no answeres that satisfy me, and i guess i never will. i miss you and love you so very much. watch over us and keep us all safe. i will talk to you soon. jayden says hi papa. until we meet again i will love you forever.

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renee posted a condolence

to my beautiful husband, one year ago you left us, it seems like yesterday. the memories of you are so vivid in my mind everyday, but especially today. i miss you more than you know. so do the kids, even jayden. too bad andrew will never know what a great papa you were. i hope with all my heart that you are at peace and in no pain. the ache in my heart will never go away, i think about you all the time. i am just happy that your suffering is over and you are in a wonderful place. gene, i would have taken care of you forever, but i know the pain you were in and tried so hard to hide it till you could hide it no more. i keep you close to my heart. know that you were loved so much by all of us. i am sorry that our time together was shorter than we expected but the years with you were the best because you cared and loved me and i will cherish that forever. rest in peace my love, you will never be forgotten. i love you now and forever, and until we meet again i will keep you close.

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renee posted a condolence

dear gene, thinking about you so much today, saturday will be the anniversary of your passing and it is realy hitting me hard. these would have been the last days of your life on earth and i wonder now that when my sister brought you the cheesecake if you knew it would be your last taste of anything. i see that day so vivid in my mind, how you really didnt know who i was, but that didn't matter, i just wanted you to eat the cake. how patent michelle was feeding you, although you only took one bite. did you know that the next day you would leave and go with god, i wish i knew. i miss you more and more everyday. iam sorry for all the things that you are missing,all the things we would have said to each other. the loss is unbearable. like i told you before i put on a good front but i am dying inside. i hope god is treating you kind. i hope you are at peace and in no more pain, and that heaven is beautiful. rest knowing that you were a good father and husband, and even though things were usually tough, i have no regrets. i love you now and forever. until we meet again, i will forever hold you in my heart.

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renee posted a condolence

good morning big, another saturday morning, weather is getting really cool. you know how i love this time of year, we both did. missing you so much. well jarred made it to texas ok, he decided to stay there and now wants nothing to do with me. go figure. we were worried about him when he arived and did not hear from him so we called the police. it just so happens he just did not want to pick up the phone. i know i did the right thing, but anyway he won't talk to me. the only one he keeps in touch with is gene. and just to let you know gene is very happy being with sandra in sweden. he will be home for te holidays, i am so glad, i miss him very much. house feel so empty without the both of them. jayden and andrew are getting big, andrew is beautiful, he looks just like maggie when she was a baby. and jayden your little man is a joy, talking so much you can't believe it. has a little spez in gool, lol, but he is only two. maggie and daemon are both sick with colds. otherwise they are good. life here stopped the day you left, i enjoy being with my sister, we bbq sometimes, but other than that i don't feel like doing anything. i can't seem to push myself. i really miss you so much, the ache in my heart is overwhelming at times. the holidays are coming soon and if wasn't for the boys i would just let them pass. you will be gone one year soon, where did the tme go, like i said before time goes fast yet i feels like yesterday that you left. louie is in troubl again, can't seem to get his life together. so many things to worry about with our kids, it makes my head spin. i hope you and freddy are not fighting too much, lol. i hope my dad is at peace, and say hi to aunt angie, we miss all of them so much too. well gene i am going to say goodbye for now. i wish we were together. someday , save a place for me. i love you with all my heart. until we meet again, i will hold you in my heart forever. please watch over our kids. i love you.

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renee posted a condolence

good morning to my greatest love, well jarred left for texas, all is not good. things are upside down with him. keep him safe. your friend ron easton passed away so he will be in heaven with you too. he just had a grandson last week. too bad he will not be here to enjoy some of the joy like you had with jayden. i will talk to you soon, i love you with all my heart. i miss you more everyday. nothing is the same without you. rest in peace my love. until we meet again, you will be forever in my heart

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renee posted a condolence

good morning gene, early saturday, quiet. i love spending this time with you. you know when i look at your picture i realize that it had been a long time since you looked healthy, but your beautiful blue eyes never changed. the memory of your eyes for some reason stay planted in my mind. they say they are the windows of the soul, they are right. i could see everything in yours, sadness, pain, happiness when you looked at jayden, all of it. i remember so well the night you sat on the couch and just stared at jayden playing in the playpen and i asked you why you were just looking at him like that and you said, i have to take it all in now, i don't have long and i got mad. in my heart i knew you were right but i wouldn't have taken that moment away from you for anything in this world. well gene our youngest is leaving the nest, jarred is moving to texas on the 4th of sept. can you believe it, i guess he wants to be closeer to the cowboys, lol. i am very worried but this is what he wants, so i have to bite my tongue and hold back tears and let him go, i know that is what you would want. the way you wanted gene to go, as long as they are happy, and by the way genie is very happy being in sweded with sandra., imiss him and i will miss jarred so much. just me, maggie, daemon and the two angels left. i guess i saw my last hoidays with all my kids with me. a little sad. gene will be home in november and then leaving again in february for good. the babies are beautiful and doing well. i wish you could see andrew, small but chubby, loves to eat. i can't believe he will be 4 months on saturday. i miss you being here with me and enjoying the boys together, i hope you can see us from heaven. i am trying to do the best i can, but you know my best isn't always good enough. well its time for me to go, i love you so much, be at peace knowing i am trying to keep the family intact, which is not always easy. keep an eye on us especially jarred. tell god to keep him safe and happy. i will talk to you soon and until we meet again, i will love and miss you forever.

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renee posted a condolence

hey big, its me, thinking about you alot today, i am sitting for the boys for acouple of hours. home alone with them, its 230. missing you so much, some days are ok and ten there are days like today, very bad. just wanted to talk to you for a minute while i was alone, the tears keep coming, the loss of you is so overwhelming. on a lighter note genie is in sweded, happy. that's what counts, as far as everything else, just about the same. i think daemon blames me for what happened to you. he is just not saying it. i think he hates me so much it hurts. i can't imagine ever talking to my parents the way he does,no matter what i felt inside i always respected them. someday i guess he will realize that i love all my kids, even though he thinks i was a no good mother, all i can say is that i tried. my heart is broken in a million pieces. well watch over all of us, anddrew is waking up and i want to bathe him. i love you with all my heart. i will miss you forever. tll we meet again.

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renee posted a condolence

good morning big, sunday morning, sittng here with jaden and maggie, jayden singing twinkle twinkle little star, andrew is asleep. they are both so beautful, i am so sorry you weren't here to see andrew. monday genie is leaving for sweden, happy for him, but i am going to miss him so much. i know you would have wanted him to go, just like when he went to england, you were so sick but you wanted him to be happy,,. he is going to ask sandra to marry him, very exciting. he loves her very much. watch over him and make sure his life is full of love and wonder. you would be amazed at your little peen, he is so smart and he talks a blue streak. he still remembers who you are, you were a good papa, he wll never forget that. you would have loved andrew, looks like maggie, everyone else says no, but he does. he's tiny, really a peen, lol. i feel so sad that they have to grow up without the love of their papa, yesterday i got all choked up in the yard, he was hitting the ball off the tee, remined me of all you are goig to miss. i hope you can see all from heaven, i know you would be so happy. well gene i guess that's it for today. i held my breath trying to get thru this week, very hard. i want you to know that i love you with all my heart, and i will miss you forever. can't wait to be wth you again, wait for me. till we meet again.

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renee posted a condolence

well gene its our anniversary, this was the year for all your plans. i am spendng this day trying to understand where it all went bad. i miss you so much and you should be here with me, celebrating. how i wish with all my heart that you could have stayed, even just for this day. we would have had such a nice time, you know we would have, when you put something in your mind it was like a pin in your side, you wanted this year to be special. i love you more than words could say and i would marry you over again, for sure. last year we celebrated your birthday and our anniversay in the hospital, who knew it would be our last. well gene happy anniversary in heaven, i will keep you in my heart forever. l love you and one day we will see the shore together on our anniversary even from heaven. l love you.

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maggie posted a condolence

hey dad happy birthday in heaven i miss u so much dad i hope that u are at peace now i love u dad

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renee posted a condolence

happy birthday in heaven, its going to be a very hard day today and tommorrow, my birthday wish for you is that you are at peace, no pain. my birthday wish for me is that you were here. it shouldn;t be like this, too soon for things to be final. i miss you so much, everyday is a struggle. someday we will celebrate together again, and we will both be happy. well gene i will talk to you later, remember tommorrow, our special day. i will talk to you then. promise. i love you more than you will ever know, celebrate today with dad, aunt angie and your mom and dad. sending you a big hug and kiss. you are forever in my heart. i love you.

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daemon posted a condolence

hey dad whats up? so im sitting here at 2:30 in the morning thinkin bout you.its hard for me to fall asleep at night.tommorow is your birthday.wish you could be here so we could celebrate it.i have been on edge alot latly.its a mix of alot of things but the biggest part is that im always thinkin bout you.i find myself feelin depressed and upset alot.i feel like if u were here it would be different you know.you always helped me keep my head up high.i dont mean to make mommy mad or do messed up things.i just feel like the world is spinning a million miles per hour.well you better get used to me writing you cuz 4 now on you will have me nagging you everyday......well i do nag you everyday cuz we are always talkin :)....i love you dad

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renee posted a condolence

good morning gene, well its one week till your birthday and our anniversary. looking forward to the memories but not the days. god took you too soon, he should have known that this was our year to celebrate, remember not 20 years but 21, you said it was different, i really am going to miss the renewing of our vows, it was something you felt so strong about. you were an old softy at heart. i wish i could turn back time just for awhile, we didn't have enough time. how i miss the days with you. we didn't always see eye to eye but in the end we compromised, most of the time i won, lol, thats because you let me. i miss you so much, jayden called you his angel. andrew is beautiful, looks like maggie when she was a baby. someday we will be together, i can't wait. i hope heaven is as beautiful as they say, you should be somewhere peaceful. you are gone too soon, you are missing out on the lives of our grandsons and you would have loved it. well gene i will talk to you later, i will love you forever, save a place for me. say hi to everyone, tell my dad i love and miss him. until we meet again, i will forever keep you in my heart.

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Magdelana Barrett posted a condolence

Monday, December 25, 2023

Merry Christmas dad i miss you so much nothings the same without u and mommy life is just empty u guys are so missed i love u old man

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Lucien vanoverberghe posted a condolence

Saturday, December 24, 2022

Its Christmas Eve and I still remember when you used to Rush us to bed so you And Mommy could run in the attic to get the gifts for us. Miss those times daddy! I would give up everything I have rite now to have you back! I love and miss you so much. Talk to you soon!

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Louie posted a condolence

Sunday, February 28, 2021

Hi dad! Wish you were here still, hurts so much that your still gone! Nothing feels the same anymore litterly nothing. Wish you can see the progress i made in life over the last 5 years you would be so proud of me. All the hard love paid off in the end cause you taught me how to be a real man like you regardless of the choices i made or make..we share so many memories together that i just replay over and over again hoping this is all a dream. I never will forget you! I thank you for everything! I LOVE YOU DAD! gd night!

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Maggie posted a condolence

Friday, January 4, 2019

Daddy it’s January 4 2019 and i know by now u just know mommy was called home to be with you .. my heart is broken but comfort knowing u guys are together again ❤️

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Monday, February 15, 2016

Miss you more and more each day. My love for you will go on forever

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renee posted a condolence

Sunday, May 26, 2013

hey big, miss you so so much, lots going on. i need you here with me. i love you. watch over us. tell all up there in heaven i love them especially dad. till we meet again i will love you forever.

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renee posted a condolence

Sunday, June 17, 2012

hi gene, happy fathers day, you were a great dad and papa. you live in our minds and hearts everyday. we miss you so so much. heaven must be a better place with you in it. we are sending all our love to you this day, just wish you were here to celebrate being a dad. i love you and will miss you forever.

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jayden posted a condolence

Saturday, June 16, 2012

dear papa, i miss you very much. i wish you were here to feed me oatmeal with you in the morning. happy fathers day in heaven. i love you papa

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renee posted a condolence

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

hi big, not a good day today, something sparked the tears, i guess it's just getting near your favorite time of year. i miss you so. andrew and jayden and owen are beautiful, i don't get to see owen, only in pictures. i wish you were here, rest in peace my love.

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Friday, October 21, 2011

good morning big, thinking about you, had dreams of you last night. i miss you. rest in peace. i love you.

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Saturday, October 1, 2011

good morning gene, well another year without you, can't believe it has been 2 years, feels like yesterday. i miss you so much, nobody knows. the kids miss you too, very much. found a lighter of yours the other night, we all had a good laugh, because it had all kinds of lights on it. i love you so much, i can't stand being without you. rest in peace my love and until we meet again, i will love and miss you forever.

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Wednesday, August 31, 2011

good morning, you are so on my mind all the time, believe me, even though no one else writes to you, you are never forgotten, we talk about you every day, you were and always will be loved. jayden and andrew are getting so big, they are beautiful. andrew looks like maggie but has some of your features, it makes us smile. just thought i would tell you how much i miss you and wish you were here. i will love you forever.

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Friday, August 5, 2011

happy anniversary in heaven my greatest love, we will be together one day. save a spot for me. i love you.

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Thursday, August 4, 2011

happy birthday gene in heaven, i still can't believe you are not here, i miss you so much. i hope you are resting with the angels. you have a lot of company to celebrate with, dad, aunt angie, freddy, and now aunt winnie, along with your mom and dad. every day that passes i miss you more tommorrow is our anniversary and i will be alone. the memories of all the years are so clear in my mind, thank god for those. watch over us, and until we meet again, i will love you forever. rest in peace my greatest love.

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Saturday, June 18, 2011

good morning big, happy fathers day, your kids were lucky, they had a dad that truly loved them. they talk about you everyday, you are never forgotten, rest well, i love and miss you more than you know. happy fathers day.

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Friday, June 10, 2011

good morning big, missing you so, grandkids are getting so big, gene moved to hong kong, jarred is back from texas, the rest the same. depressed, never get over the loss of you, i am so empty. i love you.

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Saturday, May 21, 2011

good morning big, they say the world will end today, i doubt it, but if it does i will be one step closer to you, so in a way it's not such a bad thing. save a special place for me. i love you more than you know.

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Saturday, May 14, 2011

good morning big, been some time since i wrote to you, doesn't mean i miss you less, in fact every day that goes by i miss you more. we were a team, a good one. i am lonely, depressed. alot of things going on, jarred's back from texas, he had real problems gene, gene is moving to hong kong on june 6th. the babies are getting so big, you would have loved it. i love you gene. wish i was with you. talk to you soon, love forever

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Thursday, March 24, 2011

good morning big, well its march and still snowing, i love it, lol, jazz had the baby and named him owen after your dad, how proud you would be. things are just about the same here,lonely without you, missing you so much. jayden and andrew are getting so big and beautiful. i am so sorry you are missing out on being here with them. i love you gene, so much. thins will never be the same. rest in peace and until we meet again i will love you forever.

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Monday, February 14, 2011

happy valentines day big, not such a happy day without you, remember how i used to get you the heart with the nuts by mistake and you said did it on purpose, lol, well i would buy you the biggest box of any kind of candy you wanted if you were here. i miss you so. things are worse than ever. gene, jarred are gone, miss them so much. i just want them to be happy. maggie is here with the boys, thank god for the boys. daemon is here too, i don't know what to do with him. i love him so much like i do all our kids, but he hates me, i mean really hates me, he has broken my heart so many times, too many to count. he misses you. i think it would have been better if i passed away before you. he has no respect for me and all he says is that things would be better and different if you were here. maybe thats true. i am so depressed i feel like i can't go on, or even want to. please send you help to me, i need you so much. i love you gene, and until we meet again i will keep you forever in my heart.

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Wednesday, February 9, 2011

hi gene, well gene boy will be leaving tommorrow for sweden, he go his residency papaers to live there and off he goes. please watch over him, he is so in love with sandra and her with him that i just want them to have all the happiness in the world. i will miss him so much. but he has to get on with his life, its' time. i miss you big, more than you will ever know, every day i feel more alone. really nobody to talk to i mean really talk to. i am so depressed all the time, i sometimes wish with all my heart that i could be with you. i hope you are resting easy, jayden and andrew are beautiful, l love them so. watch over all of us. until we meet again you will be forever in my heart. i love you big.

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Sunday, January 23, 2011

hi big, its' me your pain in the butt wife, lol. playoffs today, routing against the jets. uncle al is probably boiling right now. lmao. i was reading all the messages that were written since you passed, how much you were loved, truly loved. that's an accomplishment in itself. you touched so may peoples lives, sometimes i come across people we knew during sports or just people we knew years ago and they always speak of you with fond memeories. some knew you were gone, some not. i miss you gene so much. time passes but the hurt does not. jayden and andrew are beautiful and andrew looks so much like you, especially in the eyes. oh how i wish you were here. i love you and want so much to be with you. i will talk to you soon, keep aspot for me. till we meet again i will forever hold you in my heart.

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Saturday, January 15, 2011

good morning big, been a little while since i spoke to you, holidays are over, thank god. we have had lots of snow so for this winter, its beautiful. how are things is heaven, i hope you are altogeither and happy. i miss you lots. jarred is still in texas, louie still in jail, gene boy getting ready to move to sweden. he misses sandra very much. daemon is ok, maggie is ok and the babies are beautiful. oh how i wish you could be here with them, you would just go crazy. gene i talk to your picture everyday and its funny that all this time has passed and i just can't seem to believe you are really gone. my heart breaks everyday for us. no enough time together on earth. someday we will be happy again and we will spend eternity together. sometimes i just can't wait. well gene i will talk to you later, know that i love you with all my heart. rest in peace my greatest love. till we meet again.

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Tuesday, December 28, 2010

merry christmas in heaven big, what a holiday it was, terrible, i miss you so much i feel like i can't go on. why did this have to happen to us, why. well gene i am sorry i didn't write sooner our computer is down. know that i love you with all my heart and wish i was with you. i will talk to you on new years eve i hope. until we meet again i will love and miss you forever.

Eugene J. Barrett, Sr.

1952 - 2009

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